Just a quick one b4 Exams
14 hours before the start of my Exams. So here is my exam schedule.
*Legend: FE1007 - Mathematics II
MS1002 - Physics II
FE1008 - Computing
FE1003 - Chemistry
*Legend: FE1007 - Mathematics IIMS1002 - Physics II
FE1008 - Computing
FE1003 - Chemistry
Its not my first time taking exams, but I am still nervous to a little extent. Just normal. Before coming to university, I keep telling myself that I am going to make it into the 1st class honors, I'm gonna mug and mug non stop, I'm gonna perform well to show myself that I am not an underachiever. Somehow near the mid-sem to semester 1, I took on a different mindset.
Is this really what God want for me?
Sure, he wants me to study well for His glory, but deep down, I know that there is a certain limit. Studies should never take first priority - God should. If ever a day I get first class honors but studies become my idol, I guess everything would have lost its meaning. As it is, God gives and takes away - Job 1:20. What difference does it make when I still have to depend on God to give me a job in the future, be it whether I graduate with just a degree, or an honors?
Here's something I told God recently:
Lord, everyone's around me is doing so well for their studies. Some of them use unrighteous means of getting the results they want, and its so easy to do so. They dont get caught, and its fine with me, because I dont need to get jealous of them. Sure, I envy their results, but I do not envy their overt anxiousness over results. I know my future is in Your hand, and whatever results I get will not matter since You have in mind a job for me. As long as I do my best, I know things will turn out alright.
But now Oh Lord, hear my plea. Do not let me do too badly in this upcoming exams such that I lose my determination to study for the semesters to come. In the future, my results now does not matter, but for now while it matters, please grant me success.
Is this really what God want for me?
Sure, he wants me to study well for His glory, but deep down, I know that there is a certain limit. Studies should never take first priority - God should. If ever a day I get first class honors but studies become my idol, I guess everything would have lost its meaning. As it is, God gives and takes away - Job 1:20. What difference does it make when I still have to depend on God to give me a job in the future, be it whether I graduate with just a degree, or an honors?
Here's something I told God recently:
Lord, everyone's around me is doing so well for their studies. Some of them use unrighteous means of getting the results they want, and its so easy to do so. They dont get caught, and its fine with me, because I dont need to get jealous of them. Sure, I envy their results, but I do not envy their overt anxiousness over results. I know my future is in Your hand, and whatever results I get will not matter since You have in mind a job for me. As long as I do my best, I know things will turn out alright.
But now Oh Lord, hear my plea. Do not let me do too badly in this upcoming exams such that I lose my determination to study for the semesters to come. In the future, my results now does not matter, but for now while it matters, please grant me success.
posted by caleb at 10:51 PM
