**[SPOILER ALERT]**

Naruto - Sarutobi Azuma breathed his last. Such a waste of an excellent ninja, a cruel way to make the story interesting. And the dragging for the naruto's new technique training... ARGH!!!!! So expected that Shikamaru will start smoking, just cos Azuma died. becareful of lung cancer man.

Bleach - Nell is very cute! And do i see a love triangle forming among ichigo and inuoe and rukia?Seems to be a trend in mangas i watch. There will be a tough guy, with a secret admirer who is not-so-secret to others around them, but the tough guy is just too tough and blind... blah blah blah..... such a waste of comic frames...GET THE STORY GOING! ITS ALREADY BEEN 2 YEARS! ok la, the story's not bad.

One Piece- WAH!!! this is the best manga for this season. HAHAHAH. Luffy's dad is the world reknown Monkey.D.Dragon, wanted by the Marine Headquarters as the worst criminal in the One piece world, while Luffy's grandad is actually Monkey.D.Carp, one of the general in the Marines. such an interesting relationship. Grandfather- world reknown police. Father and brother and Luffy himself- world reknown revolunary and pirates. KEE KEE KEE. haha..


An Enchanted Life - GAAAAAAAHHHHHHHh. why must the story go this way? Channel 8 better come up with a good remedy. Meiya is such a scheming woman. the only plus point is that shanqi is not stupid. But shes gonna get chased out of the house today!!!!! aslkdhfb wroiqweuflsn djfasfdnsdfsudjasldkfas ffdjafdasjfsdfksdfuidifj. GRR.

sorry abt the last emo post, i just needed sumwhere to vent my emotions

ok i think i will be moving to LJ soon after my A lvls. IF BLOGGER HANGS ON ME ANOTHER TIME.

i typed one whole post on sunday and when i was abt to publish it, the connection went off. GRRR

yeah i was ranting, HOW COME THE LITTLE BOY UNDER THE BLOCK AT MY GRAND'S PLACE HAVE THE EXACT SAME BIRKS AS ME, even though he is half of my height and shoe size, and definately only about 1/3 my age. GRR. rich guy. at least i have good frens who bought me birks. RIGHT? RIGHT? RIGHT? RIGHT? RIGHT? you guys know who u are. haha. as u can see, i am faithfully using it. heh heh heh.

and i was saying, me and ty look like some ah gong at the kopitiam, relaxing and reading newspaper for half the day yesterday. its like, peaceful within. ty calls it- the peace of God. If it is, i realli thank God. Cos, sometimes i am realli confused whether i go to my grands to clock study hours, or animal planet hours. haha. but its not alot of tv la, and its EDUCATIONAL.

and, guess what? The 9pm drama serial is gonna end on a friday, WHICH IS A TUITION DAY!. grr. and someone please wallop mob tv cos its NOT FREE.

another thing is that, i cant stand the way Ms Sab keep saying that "dont worry" regarding my paper 1 for GP, when all the comment she give are very worrying. haha! but come to think of it, its pretty funny and cute of her. OK MS SAB, I"M GONNA DO U PROUD. :D

bible study on saturday was quite fun. it was on James chapter one, which says that "man have desires and these desires when entertained give birth to sin", sth along this line. So if a person gives in to these desires, can he blame other people for the consequences he has to suffer? NO. What he can do is, to ask God to help him get out of the mess and God will surely say...

teacher: "Say what, kids? God will say what?"

kids: "YES!!! STAMP, CHOP, GARUNTEE & SEALED~!"

teacher: "ah, clever children"

And i was thinking some time after the bible study,(assuming) if my life seems to be in a ruin, can i point my finger and blame others? hmm. Sure, they have a part to play from my POV, but if i am a bible believing christian(and i am), i am supposed to believe that, if in the first place i choose not to be tempted by my desires, even the devil cannot do anything(COMMENT). If the devil cannot do anything, i cannot blame anything and anyone, not even the irritating beetle that was buzzing around my head the other night. People are like catalyst. They either help to faster bring out the best in us, or fastly help to bring out the ugliest in us, and, it is up to us to face our ugliness with a plastic surgery with the help of the One above all.

Ok granted, that at times i am not in the wrong, BUT if i were to focus on putting the blame of me being in dire states on that irritating buzzing insect, number 1, i realised, i would be implimenting that i am in a state whereby no one can help me so much so that i have to turn my focus from my own problems and start focusing on others. Secondly, i am implying that God had a hand in it, so, if God had a hand in it, isnt it better that i'll just show God how much i can rot just cos He's not helping me when i rot?

thats why, people, you've been seeing me hit the books much more often than me going to the toilet now a days. i tot my life as a ruin after BT2, just to find hope again after just simply doing my part and letting God do His.

To those people out there who think that u are in a very bad very bad state, u might wanna see the consequence of the beetle which irritated me, just pray and do your part, and whatever ruin u think u are in, as long as God have not cursed you( eh, face it, GOD LOVE <3<3<3 YOU JUST TO MUCH TO EVER WANNA CURSE YOU) , you are already in better shape than Jericho was.

After talking to ling yesterday, i feel pretty much like the jerk i see in drama serials. Those who toy with innocent gal's feelings. Been like a year and a half, but some things just have to come to light now. Hai. But, if time could rewind... ok i rather it not.

I'll still make the same decision not to commit, back then.

But what she did for me, was very noble.

A gratefulness i cant express,
though its just only gratefulness now.

BLESSED BIRTHDAY ALOY!

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[if anyone's reading this, please read to the end :D]

I love watching animal planet. There are so many shows on that channel to learn from them about the animals all around the world. Recently, I've been inspired to be an animal scientist. They have many chances to be in contact with the animals, to observe them, to watch them in action when they prey. The sheer muscle power, their acceleration when they run, just so amazing, so beautiful.

One thing i learnt, that to be an animal consrevationist, it requires alot of work, and even patience. First, u have to observe the animals, their habits, and take notes of the things in their environment which makes them thrive. Even when the world is against you, you just have to continue. No one is on your side, not even the animals most times. The only gifts u might get in return are the scars on your body.

Yesterday i was watching a conservationist project on the consrevation of Mexican wolves. In the wild, there was a period of time when there were only 69 left in the whole world. Melissa Woolf(yeah thats her real name) and a few others stpped in, and after 2 years, managed to capture 5 of these wolves for breeding. Up to date, there are around 200 in the wild, thanks to this conservation project.

Firstly, this project required catching the wolves, settling them down, introduction between lone male and lone females, breeding, vetting, and finally releasing the wolves into the wild. This is a long process, and successful breeding chances are only about 50%. Moreover, these conservationist have to make sure that the animals they released have enough space to roam about. This responsibility have driven them to even confront ranchers and coming up with meetings with cowboys in the ranches to persuade them to to stop shooting these animals, though the animals might be a threat to the herds.

Now, what i admire but cant understand about these animal conservationist is that they have this special love inside of them for these animals, yet they are willing to let these animals just go into the wild. Learn to let go.To go all out to protect these animals, yet be willing to let them go just like that, it is something that i don't think i can do. Its a big step to take. Really. However, to learn to let go is something i think i must learn in life.

Since young, whenever its national day, i see fighter jets screaming past my flat, and i told myself that, i wanna be a pilot. Than, i see a dog on tv and told myself again that i wanna keep a dog next time. From 1 dog, i started to dream of having 2, than 3. The Rough Collie, the Border Collie, and now, a Long Coated Chihuahua. Someone once asked me sumthing along the line that if i were to have a circumstance whereby i cannot have a dog, will i still keep a dog? Outrightly, i said 'no', though there is a tingle of sadness when i come to think of it. Of course, i do have many other dreams, like that of me making a million dollars before a grow old, live in a big house with a big family and also my brother's family... ... ...

Dreams, when dreamt, are good, pleasent and happy. However, it does not mean that whatever we dream might come true. Learn to let go of unrealistic dreams. Sometimes, we must learn to let go, and than we will realise that we will gain even more, that the things that are holding us back from recieveing, are actually the things we are not letting go.

No more pilot cos i have thick glasses, no more million dollars, no more big cars, no more many dogs and no more big family.. they are just dreams to be dreamt, and if they come true, they are good. But, i am not putting my hopes too high up in my dreams. What matters for me now is that i am walking the pathe my creator had meant be to walk.

I've thus learnt to let go, of the nature that had stop me from growing- the big-mouth-say-all-i-think personality, the i-am-bitter-and-will-stay-so-because-i-am-not-in-the-wrong, and many others... i hope, and want, to gain the eternal hope, to continue in this pathe and not sway, but i am weak as a human being. Weak-willed, yet stubborn. oh right, anyway, if you guys thing about it, Jesus gave up His life (letting go) so that we could gain so much so much. Time we did the same for ourselves.

Dear God,

If there are things in my life i must let go, teach me.

In Jesus Name, Amen.

haha, ok anyway, i tot of an analogy. If someone love their shit so much that they are constipated, why not they try letting go of the shit, and they will be able to feel a sense of relief never before in a long time. :D

i know this is contradicting to my last post but i am here to COMPLAIN!hahah. i am supposed to be online to watch "An Enchanted Life" episode 10 on mob tv, cos i missed it due to physics tution last night. Throughout the tuition i was complaining abt missing my show(my aunt's fault, turned me into a sg-drama-chasing boy, sth i had stop like 7~8 years ago i think), and my tuition fren told me abt mob tv...

Me: I'm gonna miss my show. Its 10 more mins to 9...
Fren: I know! u can watch it on mob tv, anytime oso can watch.
Me: Really?! can watch anytime i want?
Fren: Ya, its free i think.
Me: FREE~!~!(magic word)
Fren: yeah its free to register, than u can watch anytime u want.

and i stopped complaining.

15 mins ago, i registered successfully FOR FREE, but realised that i hafta either SUBSCRIBE(with money of course, not monopoly money), or PAY PER VIEW.

i've got served. ok at least it got me to shut up.

ok. just some updates. Aunty Angie finally got her car, though its a red plate. Was persuading her to drive me to church today and almost succeeded when my youngest aunty stepped in to help her, quoting the famous "shes not confident enough to drive u to church" argument. ok, next time then.
(i'll get my liscense asap so i can hog her car.. hie hie)

For the nth time i learnt. A foul/uncontrolled mouth breeds a deceitful heart. mine. The Word is always right, regarding gossips and sanderous tongue. Complaining to the world amidst my own self-righteousness never help to liven up my spirit.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR LIM CHONG SHENG(tml)!
(and i forgot it was HH birthday quite some time ago, haha)

Isnt it biblical that when a brother/sister sins, we should get 2 or 3 others to go with us to confront him/her, and that when he/she still continues to sin, we dirent this issue to the elder(someone of authority) and if he/she still sins, axe communication with him/her?

Was reflecting, its tiring to be involved with sumone like that, dont u agree? The worst thing is when this person always thinks he/she is right.

So, dont blame me for being a hypocrite, that i dont correct a warped minded brother/sister even when i know something is obviously wrong, which might be not obvious to that person.

Technically speaking, if you keep falling into the same hole, dosent it makes you at least more concious about the hole? Either take some sand and cover the hole, or take extra care to avoid the hole. This is a normal human thinking isnt it? Its very exhausting to pull the trapped person out of the same hole, and keep doing so for eternalty, as it seems the case for me now. Even worse is to be blamed for not being there to warn the same person abt the hole which most likely will equate to me being the one putting the hole there for him/her to fall into it. hello? a hole is a hole, do u get it? u cant move it. u can only either cover it or risk falling into it.

So the moral of the story is, if u see a hole on the ground, the best thing u can do is to cover it. The next best thing would be to avoid it so that u dont fall into it, although others oblivious to it will still drop inside. A bad thing u can do is to keep falling into it, and the worst thing u can do is to blame the helping hand for not being there in time.

I'm human and i am gonna have my A levels soon. Stop making me think that God hates me and that i am doing everything wrongly cos i know that if God wasnt on my side for me too, i wouldnt have came so far from my BT2 results to Prelims. I did not criticise anyone's spiritual depth, so please dont comment on mine, explicitly. Healthy criticisms are always welcome.

Was watching Animal Planet's Most Extreme.

The field sparrow is listed number 10 in the most extreme defense skill. When a crow comes near its nest, the adult will first call for re-enforcement from the other field sparrows around that area to surround the crow. If that still does not chase away the crow, they will start to drop their corrosive droppings on the crow with precise accuracy while speeding past the crow, just like a stealth plane.

There's this desert lizard which sprays stinky blood from the back of its eyes when predator approaches it. The blood can spray up to two feet into the air.

i like the archer fish. shoots water at hovering flies at precise accuracy.

The electric eel is so far the best. It's habitat is in the crocodile and piranahs infested waters of the amazon, or whatever forest u call it. Able to stun a full grown crocodile through its thick thick skin, it is known to be able to kill a human being. It has no teeth so it stuns its prey till they die, and swallow them. neat.

One fun fact: I burglared my way into my granny's house late last night, cos i dint bring the house keys and everyone was asleep. haa. told my aunts this morning. My mom said that some of them went "so clever!", instead of the "wah good thing its caleb and not a real burglar" kinda thing i expected. haha

thanks ty for having me today:D The free lunch was, well, FREE! Free food is good food, so yeah its good!:D haha.

...it felt like a sword just pierced me from my back, in an instant, right into my life. why are you doing this?...

oh yeah, finally fixed up another tagboard. C-BOX! haha. was quite irritated with the old one already. Actually comtemplating a chagne to LiveJournal, but at a time like this, think i better stay with blogger first. ahah.

home- its a state of mind, not a place.

HELLO FRIEND!

Havent seen much of you since 1997. It was love at first smell, i remembered, ahhhh. You've grown into someone so beautiful, and i'm glad that over the weekend we've been seeing much of each other. However, your sudden disappearance over sunday rendered me heartbroken. I really missed you. My apologies to not being able to notice your return from Indonesia until i smelt that whaff of unique frangrance, that which permutates the air. It had left me weak in my knees and gasping..

TO: my beautiful HAZE.. cough cough*

now, i got it out of me. those particles of dust are just so so so irritating.
and cheers for my return to civilisation. and i am just wondering, issit my connection or issit sth wrong with tagboard. i just cant seem to get my tagboard to work. grr!

oh oh, with more interesting updates from the animal kingdom, Courteosy of Corwin's Quest..

The lungfish is able to live without water for 2 whole years! It does so by cacooning itself in a cacoon of mud when the dry season comes and then, set itself to hibernatino mode!

There is a type of frog living in the antartica, it is able to adapt to the freezing cold winter there by cacooning itself, and hibernating, in a pile of leaves. Wait! Theres even more to this! It freezes along with the water around it too, turning rock hard. Its ability to do it is due to the large amount of glucose coverted from its staple diet, which acts as anti-freeze agent to the brain and major tissues. Its heart, by the way, also freezes. The length of time they normally remain in freeze mode is amazing- a month.

There is also this breed of seals which lives in the antartica. Besides having blubber, it has the ability to volunteerily shutdown some of the blood running though the blubber, thus able to reduce heat lose. Also, a single breathe can last this seal for very very very long under water. so cool. haha.

Mudskippers have pertruding eyes which can get back into their eye sockets which stores water, so that their eyes do not get dry.

Penguins live in the desert too. Some species even have life-long partners. check that out.

A golden eagle is known to be able to kill an adolescent kangaroo in australia. Just imgaine what a spectacle this golden terror is.

Camels are known to go without water for 7 or more days. Able to stand harsh and fast changin climates in the desert, with day time temperature soaring above 40 degree celsius and night time temperature near freezing point. Moreover, it has super long eyelashes to prevent dust and sand particle from flying into the eye. Big 2-hooved feet ensure that the huge animal do not sink into the sand. Super thick lips to chew on cactus? oh yea, they can drink up to 100 litres of water at a singel go, if i'm not mistaken.

so, who can say that God is boring and that man is more creative than Him? Let Him show u what is art, LIFE! haha.

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huffff* pufffff* puffff* pufff* woooooooo~!
guess what i am doing.

ya i am breathing.

something i never thought i would have to thank God for- FRESH AIR!

things got so desperate that i had to hop on to the next available bus though it meant i had to change more busses. i dint care, i jsut needed the air con!

Its good to finally have fresh air after friday and saturday.

and the past few days, i've been camping at my grand's house, watching so much television. Discovery channel wild, Animal planet. Learnt so much more interesting things which unfortunately, is not gonna come out for A levels.

A big crocodile usually is able to hide into an unbelievably small burrow it made itself, so as to escape the heat of the day.

A rat is able to enter into a house if there is even a crack in a wall which can poke a pencil in. They are able to flatten their shoulder bones and blah blah... squeeze through.

The fastest fish on earth can swim at about 80 miles an hour, which is about 128kmph

Deers and monkeys share a mutual friendship in the wild. The monkeys can sit high up in the trees and watch for predators while the deer's excellent hearing down below the trees back it up. Monkeys drop food down from the trees when they are eating and the deers get to eat the fruits up there too!

1/20 is the probability that the hunt of a tigeress is sucessfull.

The zebra is a rare treat for a crocodile. Thats cos a zebra only crosses a river a few times a year to migrate and also, a zebra's butt is most times too big for the croc to clamp down on, and also, the kick of a zebra is POWERFUL!

The croc normally survives on fishes actually.

The hippo, not the croc, is the king of the river. Even lions revere them. Hippos, by the way, eat meat too.

There is no such thing called a crocodile-left-over. Their stomach acid is so strong that it can digest bones and skins. I've heard somewhere that if u put an iron nail into the stomach acid of a croc, it will dissolve in 5 seconds.

See, so interesting. But actually, also quite useless, unless i go and work as a wildlife scientist, which might be very likely. haha. ok i am just bored.

My cousin, shes 22++ i think. Shes getting married. gah, so young, and i think its quite fortunate of her. Not that i dint tot she could get married(shes very pretty k, the genes runs in the family), but more of, its very rare finding people getting married at such a young age. However, i was exposed to this news in a very unwelcomed way. haha, forget it, it humourous when i think abt it. haha.

One minus point is that, my mom says the guy is not a christian. Anyway, its quite hard to be a guy in a family argh, esp being the head?Never experienced before, but if they claim that working life is worse than studying, i dunno how am i gonna kope in the future when now i already feelike i am slogging my life out like a sloth a hardworking ant.

Ok i must look things on the pleasent side. Take it as an investment for the future i suppose.
No good grades = no certain future = no security = no hope of a family = no decent coffin.

But of course, there is always full time ministry. However, it should not be a last resort but a first. thats my piece.

And, i was reading this article abt faith on the Sunday times jsut now. About how "different Faiths should live together harmoniously. " Its quite impossible, dont u think, for ideologies worlds apart to be not repelling.? Unless, they are talking about the people of different faiths, than i agree its possible. But its was an entertaining article nonetheless. Lots of laughs. haah.

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i got this from ty's blog. Its a waste of his genious humour if i dont share it. haha!
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Wry notes. Life in college.

C maths teacher: Tai Yong, did you do the last prelim assignment?

Tai Yong: No.C maths teacher: Why not? Then what have you been doing the whole weekend?

Tai Yong: Econs and History.

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The hardworking student's take: Wah, this test was friggin hard. Fortunately I studied for it.

The slacker's take: Wah so hard. Fortunately never study. Study already also will fail.

The A student: Hard meh?

The ultra-slacker: Is it? I see the first question I sian* already, cannot do. Then in the end I decided to sleep. Aiyah, anyway I'm doing the teacher a favour. Less to mark mah, correct? Anyway fail already later can study and get good progress award.

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My friend, before the mid-years: Listen here's the plan. I'll get an A for Chinese, A for Econs, but F for C maths. Watch me man.

My friend, after the last paper: Eh listen, there's been a change in plan...

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Background: Never attend GP lecture for J2s. Me and friend sitting near staff room, talking to a teacher.

GP teacher who walks by: Excuse me, are you J2s?

Friend: Hmmm? Huh? (acting blur)

GP teacher waits expectantly.

Friend to me: Are we J2s? (still trying to act blur)

Hahahaaha.

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History teacher: Look , the issue about implicit agreements in layman's terms is this. When one party says something and doesn't do it, the other party will get angry. Tai Yong, if Firdaus says he wants to meet you at town. And then he turns up 2 hours late, will you be angry?

Tai Yong: No.

History teacher: Why?

Tai Yong: I don't go town one.

History teacher: -_- Ok, never mind. Then what if one day you're supposed to meet Mark. And you say you'll meet him at 2p.m. But then you turn up 2 hours late. Would Mark be angry with you? Yes right?

Tai Yong: No.

History teacher: !!!! Why?

Tai Yong: Because Mark will most probably be 2 hours late as well.

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Friend to pregnant teacher: Ms. XXX. You look slim from the back leh!
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ty's joke quality went up like the PSI of Singapore. and its better than mine now. ahh!

Its hard not to regret, when we look back into life and realised how much waste we have left in our trail... how much better life would be, if we had been introduced the word discipline much earlier.

how much more knowledge i could have acquired if i had set myself to pursue it in my free time,

how much more proficient in my studies will i be had i just paid attention in lectures and taken an hour or two daily to revise my notes, even without doing tutorials,

how many more souls God could have used me to touch had i obey the great commision, or even being a better testimony in my results

and, how much closer to God would i be now had i continued to do a disciplined quiet time. Maybe, i could be like Daniel in the bible, Elijah, or even Elisah. Isaiah is not bad too. I might even be in full time ministry now, sth i hope i can do in the later part of my life when i retire.

if, and only if, i could stop whinning abt my own problems.

What i want and hope i live for, is for that face to face conversation which i am not worth, but i am clinging on to faith, hope and love. If i could just talk to Him, heavenly Daddy, i have so much so much to ask, so much so much i wanna know, the 'who', 'what', 'when', 'where', 'why', 'how'.

and to have fallen/falling makes me understand how weak i actually am.

Thank God, the thorn in my flesh. Non-fatally pain. Just like Paul said.

What that does not kills you, strengthens you.

was looking out from my grandma place the other day. It's on the 11th storey, very high. The sky looks so cloudy and nice and since its so high up, the view of buildings far away looks realli misty, and i got the feeling that i am sumwhere high up in the mountains with the clouds floating pass me, so heavenly, haha. Someone beside me went, "wah, the haze today realli bad man.", and i was like, "oh, its haze ar?! not mist! ". I gave a sniff. "hmm, smells like sumthing burning." Rubbed my eyes, "yea my eyes' quite irritated too!". "MUST BE HAZE, NOT MIST!". Got cheated of the feelings invoked while admiring the mist.

and did anyone realise, its 31 days to A levels, FYI.

oh and, the stuff here are quite nice. :D

http://masqueraid.livejournal.com/

I should have tot of this ingenious plan sooner.

From now on, i shall try to stay over at my grand's place over the weekends. Friday to Sunday.

See, i get breakfast, lunch, dinner, tea, snacks, supper, all free! plus the SCV tv. GOODNESS! Better still, i have a genius cousin who had scored 4As and 2 S-papers distinctions staying right here. Free tuition and consultation. yea, this is a great plan man caleb! PLUS, my cousin will be hoggin the com DOTA-ing away, so i wont be able to use it. and, so quality family bonding time with him. haha.

breakfast, i had mee pok and 2 roti prata kosong and milo, all expenses paid for by my uncle. Lunch, my aunty cooked porridge, canned spicy pork cubes, honey bacon, fried prawns in flour, mashed eggs with mayo, baked chicken wings, and some other fried stuff. On top of that, there is always a free flowing supply of milk freshly bought milk from NTUC and the honey drink that aunty angie made.

Indeed, it is a land flowing of milk and honey, but sadly, the heads of this house are not a christian, my grands they are.