dear
caleb,
i heard that u have been having some wonderful time of fellowship these few weekends in the house of the Lord, and i thank God for that. I also thank God that these two weeks, you have been trying very hard to study, although there were times u gave in to tiredness; but u had lacked sufficient sleep just studying and worrying.
i just wanna encourage u, that the
Lord had not gave us a Spirit of fear, but one of peace and of a sound mind. Therefore, since our future is in the Lord's hands,
do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow have enough worries of its own. None of us, by worrying, can add a single day to his life.Now, lets talk abt the last weekend. Heard that u went down to City Harvest Church for the deliverence service by Mike Cornel, together with handsome Chaos, Jem, UD, Aloy and also Tim. Too bad the rest of your frens could not come along. Must be the usual nil replies or no replies from the rest. haha. Nevertheless, i hope it was a good expericence for u, just seeing demons manifesting due to the strong annointing of God on Pastor Mike Cornel, and also the deliverance team. I remembered seeing many people, thin as they were, needing abt ten people to pin them down due to the manifestations, and yet still able to try to get up. The altar call saw many people being delivered, where demons cry and scream when coming out of a person, and also came the vomiting of phelgm. I hope that reminded u strongly of the work that God had in store for u-- that over the past few month after Life concert,
u had almost staled with little people ard u to encourage u in that area. Now though, i can see the fire coming back to u. Don't give up bro!
Yesterday night, i saw u at the indoor stadium too, for the festival of praise. Thank God for that! haha.
I bet u cant get that ticket for "Rapture", that dance concert your sku put up at esplanade. haha! ok, thats not true rite? ya dont think it is. Though i know u like dancing and watching dancing, i could see that u really wanted to go to Festival of Praise. Heard u say that your fren Handsome Chaos gave up his rapture ticket for FOP. My deepest of respect for him :D. He is one of those brothers that had helped u alot recently, reminding you to do what is right, or even just crapping with you. I think you were quite glad that he was one of those that went with u and sat beside u yesterday throughout the whole service :D. Oh yar, thsoe juniors or yours from SFC that went! What were their names? Issit not Kevin, Eunice, Gloria, Anthea, Rachel, Wan Lin? Jem was there too rite? haha. i saw Aloy serving. Just so good to be in the House of the Lord with all these lovers of God. it was a pretty sight seeing your brother Aaron and cousin Cheyrl and Joseph Tiew there too:D of course, your church leader Amelia, Brother Daw Ching.
So how did u find the Christian City Church Band? Really good eh? hmm. i think their songs are more for Praise, but i must say, i really did enjoy myself when Joseph Pringles led those songs, with such simple lyrics. I was also led into a great time of worship by Don Moen. This guy really has the annointing to lead worship man! Please psycho your brother to buy that new cd of theirs so that i could borrow and rip it into my com! haha. The Speaker himself, Argentinian Pastor Ed Silvoso was also very annointed and charismatic. With his heavy Argentinian accent, he still managed to grasp my attention, rendering me wordless throuhout the whole sermon. It never fail to amaze me as to how God can reveal so much things to Him just reading over 2 chapters of judges, story on Gideon.(
i did the same 2 chapters a few weeks back and i only got a few minor points ): )
Ok, I shall end my letter by reminding you, caleb, of what pastor Ed silvoso said yesterday, and u better remember, that;
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God has a better impression of you than that of what impression you have for yourself (not the handsome impression hor! hahaa) Remember the fact that God's Angel called Gideon a
mighty warrior,even when the first thing the bible recorded Gideon doing was to cowardly wanting to hide stuff from the enemies? well, God looks at us with lenses of the future, not of the past. Your memories af failures in the past are your obstruction to faith! Look to God instead of trying to decipher your future by your past!
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When you do what God wants you to do, you will surely find favour in men. i think this one means over a period of time, yeah. haha.
ok, i shall not hold u up any longer. u better be doing some work!. haha.
Love,
caleb.
look at the corrupted world around u. polluted as it is. however, u must "
learn to swim in dirty water without swallowing it". -
Ed Silvoso.
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On a side note here, i wanna share a testimony. Few months back, the doctors discovered a tumour at my mom's ovary, about 5 cm. after a month or two of praying, THE TUMOUR IS GONE!
PRAISE GOD!!also, 3 days ago,
Carpenter's tools, a christian group from the States, came down to my sku during chapel. i realli enjoyed what they were doing, even testimonies and their music. reminds me that i have less than 10 weeks in sku to spread the gospel to my classmate- as a current student there!
people! buck up your gears to spread the gospel!-----------------------------------------
Something i koped from Pest's blog:
From the Inside outA thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myselfIn bringing You praiseIn my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
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"The art of losing myself, In bringing You praise"- yea, i guess, i am losing quite alot these few days. the art of losing myself, this, i am trying to achieve, BUT, have i brought Him praise? My sudden focus on studies had left me quite broken and empty in terms of my frenshipS. No longer do i have the luxury of spending time with all the people i treasure, and still do.
However, it had never amazed me more this week that the words i sang during morning worship would come out of my mouth and go back into my heart. It must be God speaking to me i guess, if not i wouldnt feel so encouraged to study. If its true Lord, please let it be, that -"
if U bring me to it, U will bring me through it."
Your will above all else, still my purpose remains... Lord of
Mi Corazone(my heart).
am i just blind and dumb to the world and people around me?
it seems like a new place. different.
confused by my own overflowing emotions...PS: heres a word of thanks to my classmates who have encouraged me to study/ have studied with me. To Jaryl, Jon, Janet, Jacq. Thanks Alot.