yesterday was the stepping down ceremony for SFC. At last!. A year ago, i was seeing Ben Sim and the others exit from this cca and now its, my turn. Ok, i think i sounded abit too looking forward to this. I have alot of mixed feelings though; happiness, sadness, feelings of nostalgia and blah...

as a bonus, i also recieved an award for outstanding member. Have quite alot of mixed feelings too, regarding that. Firstly, i thought that this prize came at a cost of my studies-- if it had been what i was working for throughout the year. No! Its not what i was working for!. Its my own fault for not disciplining myself in my studies, and i have never been able to do that since young. its by the grace of God that i have what i have today. If anything, God's Name and glory on earth should be what i am working for the past one year, thats why i dint feelike recieveing that gift. I would rather my rewards be in heaven, where moth and rust do not spoil them. Than again, i think everyone needs that appreciation and reassurrance, and i had it. I was fortunate, and still am. If only i could be as enthusiastic in my studies as in serving God through the artistic talents He had given me.

also, for the other normal members, i think that everyone had played the role God had intended them to. They had contributed, and not a soul can say that anyone of the others have done less than what thats required of them. Maybe, my contribution was just much more obvious than the rest, obvious in a sense that it is more visible. I would like to give credits to those behind the scenes too. Those in SFC that had helped me mature from a playful boy to a much more thinking person now, they include

Teachers : Mr Lim Chong Sheng, Mr Jonathan Yoong, Mr Peter Soh, Mrs Loi and Mrs Wong
Mentors: Bong, Mark, Ron, Raphael, Rebecca, Jessica, Gail and Elizabeth
Seniors: Ben Sim, Andrew Wong, Andrew Farm, Gideon, Jonathan Tan, Suzanne, Elizabeth
Those from the exco: Tim, Jayce, Pest, Chaos, Joel, Aloy, Janice and Anna
Those outside exco: Pris, Jem, Nic, Val, Vonn, Huiru, Fawn, Belda, Angie, Charissa, Angie, Tim Fang, Kim, Kirstie, Jeremy Tan, Yolanda, Irvina.

there might be others i have left out while rushing this entry. my apologise.

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PS: The SAJ choir boys very very cute! i wanna have a few sons like that! haha.
well, no one took the free tix i offered. what a waste of 4 bucks.
Thanks Rachel for sharing with me the milk sweets that Anna bought for u:D
the last 3 songs fromt he saints choral was not bad though. :D

No wonder gals love recieving flower(s)! Even when its from a friend who is not very close, it will still feel qutie nice, that someone even tot abt doing this. haha. ok, I am saying this cos I recieved one today. I must say this, that i dint know that handsome guys like me and joel (AND ALSO CHAOS!) would one day fancy the feeling of recieveing flowers from a gal.

Ok, mebbe i am still at a stage where i dunno what will thrill me now, since toys which i once found delight in playing, they are things of the past. haha.

oh ok ok, gtg. think vic's suggestion of deleting msn is abit too cruel for me to carry out, but anyway, i shant put my msn to auto log-in anymore. so if i come online, GRAB THE CHANCE TO TOK TO ME! muahaha. ok by now i already overshot by 10 mins the time i allocated for bloggin. and computering at that. argh!

Mike Cornelling later. :)

Solve X
courtesy of Pris. haha













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There was once this boy and a lamb. They did almost everything together; eating, playing, sleeping,bathing. Whenever the boy had trouble, he would share with the little lamb. Likewise, when the lamb is sad or if it is being bullied by the wolve, it will go to the boy and shed a few tears, after which, both will feel better. Laughter would soon follow. Undouptedly, they shared alot of good times, and also bad. But their frenship grew stronger and stronger. Eventually, they grew up.

One day, these pair of good friends decided to go travelling. On the way, the lamb met a few other lambs. Lamb became excited and made friends with the new lambs it sees. It chatters to its new found friends in its lamb-guage, "baa, baa, baa". The boy, seeing the lamb was so happy, was glad for the company too. As they continued their journey, the boy met other people; both boys and girls, and made friends with them. Now, both the boy and the lamb had made new friends, and they are happy. Before long however, they decided to go home as they were homesick, so they bid the other lambs farewell.

Upon reaching home, they boy recieved news; that he has to go to the next town for a month to help his father settle some businesses. Not wanting to make the lamb feel uncomfortable at the change of environment, he persuaded the lamb not to follow him. "If u are lonely or if the wolve bully you, give me a call and i will rush back. otherwise, u can call the other lambs here to live with u."

after a day or 2, the lamb could not stand the lonliness. Not wanting to disturb the boy in helping out with his father's business, it decided to go find his other lamb frens and stay with them. They had alot of fun. The lamb was happy that it had made new frens, though it missed the boy.

When the boy finally returned, he found the lamb missing. He searched and searched and finally found it playing happily with the other lambs, somehow oblivious to the boy's presence. The lamb had found its own kind and is happy, the boy can only conclude. "Birds of a feather flock together, so i suppose lambs of the same wool cluster together too", he chuckled to himself, a tint of emptiness in his tone though.



dosent it gives u relief to think that Jesus is not like that boy but rather, a sheperd, that wont be goign abt his Father's business and be so physically distant from us? ok, haha. the reason is cos He is omnipresent and omnipotent. haha!

haha. been long since i write a story like that. Narrative. no conclusion yet though. i am quite tired. yawn. time to do some work!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAN JIAWEN!

jiawen was made to carry around a pineapple today, thanks to sweet vengence by JT, whom she had bought a watermelon on his birthday for him to carry ard, which inspired me to give vic one for her birthday too, cos it resembles a bowling ball. haha!

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WHO WANTS TO GO TO CHOIR CONCERT THIS FRIDAY AT 7.30PM IN MY SKU? I HAVE ONE EXTRA TICKET!
that brother of mine conned me to buy for him and now he dun wanna go!
so now, please raise your hand and dial my number. its going at 4 bucks.
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i would like to think of my blog as my online diary since i realli dislike holding a pen in my hand, besides for spinning purposes. Here, i deposit my thoughts, be it raw or thoroughly thought through ones, and also some extracts of my life. Some people use their blogs for other reasons, like advertising.The fact is that, the blog is not private and people DO read our blogs, random people at that. Thats why i believe that whatever i post on my blog should not be specificly to scold/pinpoint errors of any individual, or to make anyone feel guilty or at fault. if anyone were to be at fault, i should always think if its my fault first-- self reflection(this mechanism is the catalyst to my accelerated improvement in conduct and human relations in recent months). Furthermore, it would end up blowing things bigger and bigger than it already is, cos bloggin is like telling the whole world that very things i blogged, declaring a complain universally!! Its like spilling milk over the floor. the larger the area spilled, the harder issit to clean and clear up. so, i might even reach a point of no return. Thats why even if i want to post comments, i should do it discretely. Afterall, its a BLOG, not a NOTICE BOARD.

若我硬硬要快快地把船靠在桥边, 船就有可能会坏得毁坏不堪.
但是, "船到桥头自然直".



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有些事我只想对你说
因你比任何人都爱我
痛苦从眼中流下
我知道你为我擦

在早晨我也要来对你说
主耶稣今天我为你活
所需要的力量你天天赐给
你恩点够我用
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7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME
1. i eat almost anything
2. i had wished to be a pilot
3. i was chased by a rooster when i was young, while peeing openly at the bush near the beach
4. i was bitten by a dog on my right hand, due to psyco-motor problems while teasing the dog with food.
5. i was once inspired to be a house husband, by my mom. haha
6. i have a good direction sense! hah.
7.i have been single all my life(except being taken- by God)!!! wow, quite a feat for a handsome young man like me! haha! ok jkjk

7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME
1. To one day lose Him who i love by going wayward.
2. The gift of celibacy. haha. quite funny when thinking abt it now, but if God really give me, i am soo gonna cry.
3. Having areas in my life that i have not commited to God, thus giving the evil one a foothold.
4. Bittergourd-yucks
5. Not doing well in this coming exams despite trying harder than normal
6. The idea that i have to give up things i like doing/friendships for God.
7. To lose anything/anyone i treasure and love.

7 RANDOM THOUGHTS AT THE MOMENT
1. Hai, besides being a brother to my brother, i have to be his maid and cook him dinner and afterwhich, wash the dishes. like in 5 mins time?
2. Why are younger brothers mostly taller than older brothers?
3. Mom's so late in coming home! if she comes home soon, i might psycho her to wash dishes for me!
4. I better take a bathe in a while's time. i stink
5. How long more is this thing gonna last!
6. I should actually be studying
7. but, i feel like sleeping now.

7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST
1. Wah biang!
2. hai. tired
3. Thank You Lord for the Food. (at least 3 times a day normally, though can be more:D)
4. In Jesus' Name, AMEN!
5. Study!
6. Paiseh
7. haha

7 PEOPLE TO DO THIS
you, YOU, u, U, yoo, YOO!, yes u!

7 WEIRD THINGS ABOUT ME
1. i look like a different person when i wear contacts.
2. i dont realli like peanuts but cant stop popping them into my mouth if its put in front of me.(i just realised this last last friday)
3. i sneeze quite loudly as compared to others.
4.i know at least 4 different ways of whistling.
5. i enjoy intellectual discussions regarding bible theology, although most people think i only talk rubbish.
6.i haven really played any computer games since 3~4 years ago. Thats what guys so these days rite?
7. i love sleeping topless but with my comforter, esp when the weather is cooling

wow, its been like 5 years since i did sumthing like that. reminicsing.

fell from grace-
someone to take my place,
a fearful tot to embrace.
if only i could see Your face.

In the midst of temptations,Lord
i fear the love i have for U will fail.

ok break's over. gtg for tonite. discipline! MSP is starting soon.. oh well.

taking a break from studies. not bad, today already clocked like 3 hrs, sumwhat a record for me. if this can continue, i'll be on my way to passing my prelims with not just E E E, eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I was thinking abt the topic on the christian demominations recently. Not so much as to which denomination is right, but as to why is there such a divide, and i came to a conclusion that makes sense. Its my view though, not a comfirm-like-that kind of thing.

Ever since the Christ came and left the earth, many had became fervent believers in this faith. Yet, long before Christ came to earth manifested in a body, the Word was already on earth. First, it was just a few words; to Adam - "do not eat of the tree of good and evil". Even just a sentence, our ancestor could not understand. Hence, we all know that Adam and Eve was chased out of the beautiful garden. Over the years, God sopke more, and the amount of the Word increased. Then, came the giving of the 10 commandments through Moses, the servant of God. This is when interpretations of the word start to get even more confusing. Law experts of the past started to set up rules and regulations, and now, it is estimated that the lawmakers at that time of Jesus have enforced about 600 laws just to make sure Israel's morale values go along the pathe that of the 10 commandments(info might not be correct, but the number is 3 digits for sure). All these come about, through the different interpretations of God's command.

When Christ just left for the right hand seat beside the Father, the bible was not in existence yet(it came abt after 90AD, though the epistles were already widely recognised) . Believers would survive on the limited word they could remember from going to synagouges. Bits and pieces of the Word. Non-complete set of the bible being circulated, resulting in different understanding from the scraps of spiritual bread. Amongst these believers, there will be those who loved the Lord with all their heart, who invest their time in examining the scriptures, just like the Bereans in Acts 17.

For belivers like these, some of them will start to stand out amongst the rest by their formulating of the more recognised understanding and analysising of God's purpose through God's Word. Naturally, those who walk in the ways of God will know that they are righteous. However, that does not mean that their interpretation of the Word is 100% correct! When these fathers of faith start to share the gospel along with their interpretation of it, their followers would than form a group, and now, we call it - denomination.(here, we have John Wesley- the founder of the Methodist, as an example of a faith entrepuenuer)

Lovers of God should be hard-core students of the bible. Its no doupt that the Word is profound and contain an undestanding that far exceed that of our capabilities to comprehen. That might be the reason why many people leave it to those 'more holy' people, like pastors and elders, to help them digest the Word and present to them in a package. They would than take it full scale without a pinch of salt. Right reasoning, wrong motive.

'Why so?' you might ask. Well, for one, even Paul encouraged people to ask him question and even debate with him regarding the scriptures. So, our understanding of the Word should not be constricted to one point of view. By never putting what is presented to us to test, how would we know if it can realli hold any water? But sadly, thats what many people do, and do so with all their heart. They spend their effort in trying to disprove the others' interpretation of the Word rather then seeking and saving the lost, so much so that its as if the reason for their organisation is to put down the others(for the extreme cases). While I believe that it is true sometimes that God will give us some interpretations of the Word meant only for us at that specific time, i am douptful that my interpretation would be the only. The motive behind all these doctrine holders, would therefore be them being too unbrave to challanged what that is being set by their' spiritual ancestors.'

Followers of doctrines are in a way too, followers of the insights of the leaders of the doctrine. Yet, if our relationship with God is there and constant, we have no lack of having not enough insights to the Word ourselves. The purpose of going to church to listen to sermons will become more obvious; that we may be sharpened in our thinking and reasonings, like iron sharpen iron, as written in the Word. We, by our own different understanding of the scriptures which are put together from the different amount of research we do and understand, should in fact, be our own individual denomination. Each person for his own. After all, when we go to heaven, God wont ask u how u interprete his Word and scold u if u did so wrongly. He will most likely ask u if u had loved Him enough to even try to understand His Words the way we would think He wanted us to. and the bottomline is, the Word tells us; "...God love all of us so much He sent His only begotten Son to die for us, that whosoever believes in Him shall not persh but have eternal life."

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VAL, ALEX!
ok if u even visit my blog in the first place, ya. haha.
a four part elaborated birthday plan carried out perfectly though i almost ruined it.

sfc jc2 appreciation today. washing feet blah. its a way to ask for forgiveness and bury old hatchet i guess, esp when i see at least 2 pairs of people i know cannot get along, they washed each other's feet in humility. Its also an act, in my perspective, to signify that we are passing on to another phrase, just like when Jesus washed His disciples's feet, he was abt to move on to die.

photo taking was fun. ha. i should have worn contacts and styled my hair. vain-pot u caleb. haha! The JC 1s are realli very sweet. Gave me a bottle filled with notes and on the bottle they wrote "I am handsome." glad they knew that. HAHA! bhb.

(ok gloria i know u read this blog, so u can actually suggest to next year jc1s to not to order ribs cos all i ate was bones. haha)

"the heart of a maker is to show what he had made with pride"
:D I just realised this.

CONGRATULATIONS! on the A, B, C boys win, HCI!

so, HCI is the NATIONAL SCHOOLS JUDO CHAMPION for A, B, C boys 2006
hmm so the surviving team members from my batch is, Hh, Hin and Ws. yea! our batch is the best! haa. ok mebbe not la, as compared to our senior batch, but yeah, u guys rock!
dun be too sad jy. you've tried your best for the A gals. see u during grad nite. Just hope its not too expensive. haah.

ah yes, my apologies on not being able to make it down for the Finals on wednesday. But at least i saw u guys beat RJC during the prelims, our rivals since gazillion years ago. haha.




below is the gp essay that i am supposed to do. decided to do it on the blog since the blog-o-phere, if u would put it, is much more frenly than the foolscrap and pen on my desk.



'We are our own worst enemies.' How true is it in today's world?

In the past, when many different nations and tribes live in hostity, the respective groups tend to look out for people within their own community, so as to increase their chances of survival as a group. In this present age and time though, survival in the society had become more of an independent effort. We set our own personal goals, and sometimes, when it does goes parrallel to that of others, than do we work together with others. Therefore, the modern day society is one that focus more on individualistic developement rather than a wholistic one.

Detractors claim that the world is in fact getting smaller and more unified due to globalisation, and that ultimately, globalisation will ensure us a give us more chance to survive as a nation or in business economics wise. That is true, if one look only at the macro level. Many countries are indeed working together, as are organisations. Mutual co-orperation are transparent enough for all to see, but is this unity build on friendship and trust? I would say that this globalisation we are seeing now is nothing more than groups of people getting together to achieve what they would want personally, be it for nation or individual. If we were to dig deep enough, we can be sure to notice a few examples that will make us ponder as to whether or not globalisation does benefit us as much as it seemed.

In recent years, when North Korea and subsequenty, Iran, wanted to further their military nuclear reserach programme, many countries, led by the United States of America, moved to oppose. To these countries that are against this advancement of nuclear research, this served to help safe guard their respective countries from possible nuclear attacks. However, from the North Korean and Iranian point of view, to them, they would have been deprieved the chance to progress in the direction they would want to. As such, globalisation only serve as a glass ceiling, where no groups of people will be allowed to progress in any direction which treatens the survival of the other groups, regardless if the direction pursued will bring in much individual gain. Thus, this kind of unification is restrictive to an individual body's growth, therefore limiting the ability to thrive as well in the world.

Globalisation alsoleads to urbanisation, which brings about deforestation at a faster rate. We used to have to share our land space with the wildlife, but now deforestation for the sake of physical living space had resulted also in the extinction of some species, some of which might actually hold the key to the cure of certain sickness. Deforestation also causes the changing of physical landscape. Consequently, these had led to global warming and related disasters such as flooding due to the melting of ice caps up north and landslides. From this perspective, we man are indeed causing our own downfall.

Also, more and more people are starting to fight for their own rights, hence, the world of today can be said to be one which is characterised by the freedom of personal choices in many forms. Over the years, many groups of people have rised up to demand for their share of equality in their society, like the women in the middle easter nations. Some serious cases even resulted in casualties, for example, the on-going catholic-protestant clash in northern ireland. Israel's conquest of a Jewish state too, had witnessed prolonged bloodshed, as both side claim to have the rights to the physical land. We, amidst our fighting for freedom of choice, had resulted in many deaths. If our fighting for freedom is for the sake of survival, what an irony it is that it had to come at a premature cost of lives. To the countries' leaders however, these lives lost are just statistics.

We might be living in a modern day society, where everyone has an equal right to living. Yet, we are still restricted by the mould that the past generations have left behind. Many cultures such as that of china, value men more than women, thus men tend to command a higher pay as compared to a woman of the same job standard. Women, these societies presume, would do much better at home. Nevertheless, if the aim of mankind in this game of universal survival is to progress as far and fast as we can, than would not leaving women at home handicap the workforce of the whole nation, rendering the nation unable to progress as fast as it can? Although policies are starting to be put in place to ensure that such customs do not interfere with the country's prospects, but to overwrite customs would be something hard to be achieve. Our own customs and traditions are therefore another major obstacle that hinders breakthrough in many development areas, not so much the occasional bears or tigers that maul humans, causing the lack in available man power.

We are at a technological age now, able to forecast weather and create rain ourselves through human means. Even mother nature can not surprise us though she is currently still able to deal some damage. As such, we certainly do not have any major enemies thats treatening our survival. The worst enemy that is able to deal the most damage would therefore be coming from within us; either a physical person, or the devil standing on the left side of our shoulders.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEST!
after this, we sure wont be surprising u by NOT surprising u on your birthday ever again. haha.

SFC has a new teacher in charge, Mr Peter something. He's rather inspiring to talk to. so now, SFC has 5 teachers in charge. wow. even more than the number of mentors in sku.

"...the sun does'nt knows abt the planets and the universe revolving ard it, does it?..."

well,

For C Maths student: Binomial expansion.

"The reason why we often read nice-looking sentences in itialics, thinking that they're some famous individual's quote, is that they are made to look special. And if you think about it, this particular set of itialicised words are kind of lame."
T. Y. Foong

"Slow to learn their lesson are the ones who read this second line."
Un-famous Author

"All hope is lost! Weird are those who never learn their lesson, because they keep reading nice-looking, itialicised sentences."
Now Infamous Writer

heh heh. i see some people copying and pasting my posts/part of my post. although ty never copy and paste my post, but i paste part of his post here. quite entertaining. ha. Thanks bro! :D


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havin respect for a guy i dint even see before. whom i dunno his name, just know hes called Snr Mr Lim. haha.

So, i am gonna be a person(hopefully! haha) next time who:

1) Wakes up early to do qt, which also translates, put God first in my life; timetable.
2)Talks little yet every word is word of wisdom(hard to achieve)
3)Give up career and worldly potential for God(which means i have to have a good career and studies achievements first, since it wont look good for God if i were to give up a rotten career to serve God, as preaching on the pulpit would then look like the next best alternative, another sth that is hard to achieve)
4)Be able to talk to my kids and gain their respect, so much so they share with me like a good fren, ask for my SOUND advice and guidance, blah. haha.

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OK samsom was preaching on the topic abt unity in the body of Christ. Guess Jesus' prayers had not been answered yet, in John 17: 20~23

"My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me.

and the normal denomination debate and inter-denomination disputes all over again covered.

one point in the sermon that set me thinking though, was the question, How Do I Wanna Die?
if its not martyrdom, then i wanna die in my sleep. Close my eyes on my bed in my room with my beautiful wife beside me(if she haven die yet, and hopefully, shes beautiful, ahha), then i open my eyes, WAH~LAH~! HEAVEN! and once again i prefer to believe that heaven is full of good food! haha. logical bah. can go and try the manna too. heh. Well on a side note, i think there WILL be good food in heaven, considering all the past food sellers that had gone off before us. FROM MANY NATIONS SUMORE ARGH!. If 10% were to be believers, than we would have chance of eating food from about all the countries in the world! ok, there must be ingredients in heaven too. Should have rite? or, the quality of food up there should be much better la rite?

well, if its martyrdom, then:
i want a clean death, like a clean shot to the head through the temple. Sth fast. and Painless bah.

alternatively, i would like to be in the flaming chariots of fire that took Elijah up there. oh, was it Elijah? or Elisah? there there, bad bible knowledge. haha.

So sudden, the taking away of lives, as compared to the giving.

Something quite troubled me just now while at a wake. Its a pity how family members will all gather only in occasions as such. Ain't family reunion supposed to be a happy thing? Thats what i had tot since young and had been looking forward to a family reunion since then. I only got one when my grandma died. Tragic. An occasion which is supposed to cause joy is catalysed by sadness and hurt.

Maybe its for such that family members are for; to help in the healing of hurts. Yet during times of joy, like during birthdays/traditional celebrations, people usually absent themselves cos its once a year anyway and there is always a chance next year..

talk abt 有苦同享, 有福自己当..

so, does this observation imply that of all the close frens i make now in where-ever i am, be it in sku or outside, that when we leave and go our seperate ways, the only time we can seriously all come back together is during times of sadness? Due to the passing of a person from our physical world; away from us? than like that, for everytime we gather, than there will be a person lesser, a person lesser, till a point where there is only one last person left in the group, still living.

pris' idea of 'DOES meeting new friends means ushering out the old.' a point worth pondering over.

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when sumone is alive, we rarely show our appreciation; an ill of the prevailing society. we should realli affirm one another in our actions when we have the chance. if u have a family member u love/cherish, i guess now, it would be good to express and even verbalize. We might not have the other chance that we tot would come- like every other day. For all u know, they or even we ourselves, might not make it through tml. e.g a car crash would be a sudden and sad end to a life.

-at a point of wishing that a vacuum would suck me out of this world.
-time can heal all wounds. yea, but the prob is, time is like an algebra, just that its undefined. Guess thats when God comes into the picture. :D

physics 'consultation' with bong was quite very productive!hahah. feeling so hardwerking now.

heres sth that never fail to humour me :D


One day during her lesson to the class, a teacher used the following lesson plan with the children. The teacher asked a little boy:

TEACHER: Tommy do you see the tree outside?

TOMMY: Yes.

TEACHER: Do you see the grass outside?

TOMMY:Yes.

TEACHER: Go outside and look up and see if you cansee the sky.

TOMMY: Okay. (He returned a few minutes later)Yes, I saw the sky.

TEACHER: Did you see God?

TOMMY: No.

TEACHER: That's my point. We can't see God because he isn't there. He doesn't exist. That's why we don't pray at school.


A little girl spoke up and wanted to ask the boy some questions. The teacher agreed and the little girl asked the boy:

LITTLE GIRL: Tommy, do you see the tree outside?

TOMMY: Yes.

LITTLE GIRL: Tommy do you see the grass outside?

TOMMY: Yessssss (getting tired of the questions by this time).

LITTLE GIRL: Did you see the sky?

TOMMY: Yessssss

LITTLE GIRL: Do you see the teacher?

TOMMY: Yes

LITTLE GIRL: Do you see her brain?

TOMMY: No

LITTLE GIRL: Then according to what we were taught today in school, she must not have one!

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and now, to the cute innocence of kids, which never fails to warm my heart! :D

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Letters to God- from little kids. enjoy :D

Dear GOD, In school they told us what You do. Who does it when You are on vacation? - Jane

Dear GOD, Are you really invisible or is that just a trick? - Lucy

Dear GOD, Is it true my father won't get in Heaven if he uses his bowling words in the house? - Anita

Dear GOD, Did you mean for the giraffe to look like that or was it an accident? - Norma

Dear GOD, Instead of letting people die and having to make new ones, why don't You just keep the ones You have now? - Jane

Dear GOD, Who draws the lines around the countries? - Nan

Dear GOD, I went to this wedding and they kissed right in church. Is that okay? - Neil

Dear GOD, I think about You sometimes even when I'm not praying. - Elliot

Dear GOD, I didn't think orange went with purple until I saw the sunset You made on Tuesday. - Margaret

Dear GOD, What does it mean You are a Jealous God? I thought You had everything. - Jane

Dear GOD, I read the Bible. What does "begat" mean? Nobody will tell me. - Allison

Dear GOD, The bad people laughed at Noah, "You made an ark on dry land you fool." But he was smart, he stuck with You. That's what I would do. - Eddie

Dear GOD, You don't have to worry about me. I always look both ways. - Dean

Dear GOD, Of all the people who work for You, I like Noah and David the best. - Rob

Dear GOD, My brother told me about being born but it doesn't sound right. They're just kidding, aren't they? -
Marsha

Dear GOD, If we come back as something, please don't let me be Jennifer Horton because I hate her. - Denise

Dear GOD, Did you really mean "do unto others as they do unto you"? Because if you did, then I'm going to fix
my brother! - Darla

Dear GOD, Thank you for the baby brother, but what I prayed for was a puppy. - Joyce

Dear GOD, It rained for our whole vacation and is my father mad! He said some things about You that people
are not supposed to say, but I hope You will not hurt him anyway. Your friend (but I am not going to tell you
who I am)

Dear GOD, Why is Sunday school on Sunday? I thought it was supposed to be our day of rest. - Tom

Dear GOD, Please send me a pony. I never asked for anything before, You can look it up. - Bruce

Dear GOD, If You give me a genie lamp like Aladdin, I will give you anything you want except my money or
my chess set. - Raphael

Dear GOD, My brother is a rat. You should give him a tail. Ha ha! - Danny

Dear GOD, Maybe Cain and Abel would not kill each other so much if they had their own rooms. It works with my brother. - Larry

Dear GOD, I want to be just like my Daddy when I get big, but not with so much hair all over. - Sam

Dear GOD, I think the stapler is one of your greatest inventions. - Ruth M.

Dear GOD, I bet it is very hard for You to love all of everybody in the whole world. There are only 4 people in our family and I can never do it. - Nan

Dear GOD, If You watch me in church Sunday, I'll show You my new shoes. - Mickey

Dear GOD, I would like to live 900 years like the guy in the Bible. - Chris

Dear GOD, We read Thomas Edison made light. But in school they said You did it. So I bet he stoled your idea.
- Donna

Dear GOD, I do not think anybody could be a better God. Well, I just want You to know but I am not just saying that because You are God already. - Charles

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tada. though i am not in a bloggin mood. haha.

today was a day of fluctuating emotions (a new phrase i learnt) haha.

did i do the right thing? don't think i compromised on my values whilst not going to sku today, for a match which means 6 years of frenshipS to me, of course to show my already-not-very-close-as-used-to-frens i will try to be there to support them. tell me if i did wrong man, anyone.

Was actually at a crossroad whether to pon sku or maths lecture, which after thorough thinking through, concluded that it wont be good and might even put my cca leadership in a bad picture. I actually applaud myself for the extend i will go to be there to show i care. haha. see, i could not pon sku, cos it would realli be a bad bad testimony rite? plus the fact that my classmates know i dont ever pon sku or lessons, if i had done so, wont it be a compromise of my values? all these added up to only one choice: --"to be sick/in sufficient pain, so that my mom will allow me not to go sku today." so, i had to pluck in my contacts for one whole tuesday in the attempt to get the red eye, which i did. i dunno whether to thank God for thsi redeye anot. but i'm realli thankful i have it, if not i have to go sku thus deemed unable to go down to show that i even still remember them. i probably would lose my eye one of these days. till then, haha. Gosh, william's so strong and muscular now, hard chest and big biceps! his past self is a pale compared to now! Yong Keong's tomoenage is reallli good, and u can always count on ws and hin to keep their calm!

oh yar, like i said, fluctuating emotions. The match. realli very very heartbreaking to see a fren close to my heart loose his cool. and to even be down 2-1 at one point in time! No wait!. To be 1-0 down was even worse, cos i dint expect Yong Keong to win in 5 secs! hooray!lincoln was supposed to be very strong an opponent(mebbe cos i lost to him before), too strong for keong. i expected to be like 2-0 down by the second man. aiyoh, why am i alwaes so pessimistic. i remember thinking the same thing last year and last last year. than for ws to hold xin wei to win by a small margin. and hin the hero. So its sth like, happy, than angry than sad than surprised than overjoyed to a full of complains for the opposing team cos we are losing to a not so experienced referee, than sad, than breathestopping moment and than a relaxed and peaceful finale. Fairy tale ending to a wonderful career for my buddy here, though its a sad thing i have no part in this team cos of obvious reasons.

hope i am numb enough to the fact that a newbie white belt and yellow belt who never played judo in sec sku can make it to A boys team this year cos of lack of people. gah!

and i realised, i am one that, when in places where i dunnit to watch my tongue, i get very, irritating(confession). and esp quick at passsing judgement(gulps!). jianyue had to correct me when i labelled someone 'traitor'. must be the communist thing in chinese skus which i sadly, never failed to inherit, to whichever extend. haha! than again, gals have a more open POV. hai. anyways, it was good being in touch with my peers and juniors. hin, hh, chaoqun, ws, willy, xx, jy, and juniors whomi am too lazy to type their names. but ya. haha.

rushed back for jan's birthday. must say, my pepsi coala skills realli deproved. much. and, an advise: don't trust anyone in a game. Severe all ties and relationships in the midst of playing games. u might be loosing to someone that either u think wont kill u or that u haf made a pact with. haha. afterall, its just a game. hope no one's sore. hah! but it was fun. :D

oh and the talk/discussion with daniel fong and janice and jem was i would say, very intersting. i would realli like to talk to another one every other day, one who dares to question The Faith openly out of curiosity and not out of spite. to have such a discussion is much much better and much more satisfying than all the gossip sessions i had been having all my life. haha. Really, still water runs deep, and deep they are. afterall, such discussions aint abt winning or loosing. its abt challenging midset and POVs. if onli ty was there. haha.

Slept late today, must be cos of the cold weather. and the alarm called "mom" dint managed to wake up. bet i put her to snooze mode too like the other of my alarm clocks. haha! anyway, the whole world must be thinking i watched soccer so never go sku (nope i dint, but to my horror found that Italy won the cup when i woke up. oh well haha). a misunderstanding i can bear to bear. bear to bear. hmm haha. remind me of yesterday's Pirates of the Carribean.

"...tied a cannonball to Bootstrap's bootstrap" . Bootstrap's bootstrap. haha. cute.

was attempting to study maths and my mind wondered away to conjure up a few phrases.


Blind me in Your love,
maim me in Your kindness.
For my eyes cannot withhold Your beauty and Your glory,
yet, i don't want to run away from You, anymore.

I've tried my best to do the worst,
boarded my one way cruise to Tarshish.
O, but where can i hide,
You know my hermitage like a tracing dish.

Bring fourth the weather and the wide-mouth fish,
that i may catch up my remorse in its tummy.
Quicken and send me to my Nineveh,
and then devour me like day-old vine.

Gone was my two-cents worth of self-c0nfidence,
when hope like china* falls onto the ground.
Servants find new masters,
and close friends find new confidants.

I might never know how much You mean to me,
till the day U cease to exist in my world.
Though I've probably never taken U for granted,
I've never known to count U at Your full value.

china*- 1)Big, like the physical country of China
2) plates and stuff made of porcelain



Probably sums up and summarise how i feel.



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God, when He said "I'll always be there for you", He means it.

I'm glad He is God and not anyone else including me, cos I will never try my best to help someone who:
-shuns me/my help.
-act as if i am transparent.
-makes me angry all the time/ at that specific time.
-acts like/is a stranger to me.
-hurt me more than one way or another, thus losing my trust.
( or is in the process of hurting me )

and also there are time when i cannot help, when:
-i have a tummy ache and hafta rush to the toilet
-i am gazillion miles away and cannot rush down in time
-i am sleeping and cannot answer calls
-i am dying/have a punched eye/have sore throat due to durians overdose and need desperate help myself
-my handfone spoil/no batt or wallet no money blah.
-i have no idea how to help
-against my belief
-i dunno the person needs help in the first place.

So now, aint we glad we have a Father in heaven that is always there even though,
-He might be angry at us
-we are sinning against Him (doing what we should not do, and not doing what we should do)
-we keep on acting as if He werent there or we do not know Him
-we might be deliberately doing things against His will i.e. disobeidience
-we might be constantly disappointing Him for the time being

and also cos,
- God will never have a stomache ache
-He is always beside us
-He does not sleep, He watches over us and hears our prayers
-He does not die/ no one can get close enough to Him to punch His eyes/ He does not suffer from durain overdose cos the durians in heaven must be top quality durians. hah!
-need no handphone to find out abt our where abouts

Most importantly, sometimes, we ourselves do not know that we need help, but God, being Him, knows our thoughts. Naturally, He knows us better than we do, and more often than not, when we readlly do need help is when we dont think that we need help.

i think that i dont think that i need help now. pun pun pun! haha

Arty farty weekend! :D

King of my granny's house.
Feels good to be watching tv on a sofa.
Eating good food and being served once in a while by doting aunties.
Puttig studying at the back my mind.
Soon i'll get a chaffeur in aunty angie. Hie hie..

To be the person i want to be:

People tend to look at the problems they have in their lives, and start to comment on how they feel abt their problems, thus stagnating. I wanna be those kinda people that look at problems, and than no matter how i feel abt it, look for the solution immediately.

mebbe thats the reason with me trying to be diff lately. However, i think its a phase i must go through. No hardwork, no results.

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Common comments and questions my aunties ask me:

1) Eat already?
2)Want money?
3)How u spend your money?
4)How much your mom give u?
5)Eh, u look thinner ar. Better looking. (i mean, no aunty will tell u that u look uglier rite?)
6)Got girlfren anot?(few more years and they will be asking if i gettin married i suppose. The interesting thing is that after this question will follow a lecture on why i should not have one as yet.) Like that, even if i have i oso act as if i dun have la. ha.

oh i just remembered a joke:

I feel uncomfortable when at weddings, my elderly relatives will knudge me and ask me when is my turn. They stop doing that after i knudge them and ask them the same questions during funerals.

haha!

7)how's your studies?
8)Wah! so big already ah! The last time i saw u, u were just a baby! (of course grow bigger la. grow smaller than a baby, wont that be wierd? haha)
9) U look like your ________ when he/she was younger!
10) Are u in poly or jc?
11) Can u help me to do _________ and __________, than after that do _________ and ________?
12)U know computer? Can teach me this and that and that and this?
13)How's your brother/mother/father?
14)Are u Caleb or Aaron? (from distant distant relatives that actually do not stay that far)
15) What did u get for PSLE/ 'O' Levels blah...

and the list goes on.

Got a few of these questions yesterday. i am so gonna compile a standard TYS answer one of these days and photocopy it on my face.

well, thats for my break. back to work. or attempting to.

huiru told me its 50 days to prelims. wonderful.

wierd that my whole future could be decided by the pathe i choose to undertake in the next 100 over days.
well, studying, such a heartbreaking thing. Gone is the time when i could hang out with my people.

plus, i have been a disappointment. i am disappointed too.






Willy. The tie-breaker. :)









HCI is playing RJC next wednesday. i am at a loss cos i dun think i can go.
HCI should be playing in the finals next next wednesday too. once again, i am at a loss.
would be good to be there for my buddies, 4 years of trng together long time ago, the same desire that thirst to win still running through my veins. of course i cant play, but to see them play and win will be a reward nonetheless. If onli i could promise them i will be there to watch them lift the challenge trophy above their heads, but i am under authorithy(school), and i dun know what behold me. Thats why i NEVER promise people that i WILL be there but rather i TRY MY BEST to be there. i'll try to be there.

how to? try to fall sick or sth la. ha.

aunty poh eng just got herself msn. and she types in chinese.
how i wish God has an msn too. i will be online 24/7.

till then...

everyone's blogging abt the world cup and its getting dull.

FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE! FRANCE!

haha.

i figured i hafta do 2 topics every week day. thats alot of work.

aye, was chatting with one of my frens from my cca over sat afternoon and sth suddenly hit me like never before, and i start to have a very different perspective of the traditional churches. (i'm from a much more charismatic church).

charismatic churches are characterised by what we call, the physical manifestations of the Spirits, and the gifts of the Spirit, which includes speaking in different tongues, interpreting tongues, healing, prophecying, word of wisdom, word of knowledge, discernment of spirits, faith, miraculous power. other things that are part of the character of a charismatic church is the way we worship, through loud music and open style.

the traditional churches on the other hand, is much more characterised by their concentration on the preaching of the Word. and also, their preaching against the teachings of the charismatics.their style of worship is more to the soothing kind, which in itself is also quite a good worship style.

Honestly, i don't realli think very highly of the way the traditional churches run their churches and their strong stand against the charismatics, and over the years, this "resentment" had build up a little. I had thought that their teachings were rather warped and too restricting towards the Divine and the way He work, by claiming the cessation of the gifts of the Spirit. Nevertheless, during the convo i had, i met myself at a point where i start to really thing, is there something, if not anything, that we can learn from the traditional churches?

Take a step back and i soon realised that indeed, WE DO HAVE STH TO LEARN FROM THEM. As i have said earlier and if your inference is right, charismatics are more towards moving by the Spirit and the traditional church, more through the Word. I, for one, do not claim i am balanced, just that i am neither here not there; not strong in the Spirit as yet, and neither strong in the Word, which i am indeed guilty.

Faith comes by hearing the message, no one can argue against that. Both ends will agree, for its biblical. Come, let me expound a little. For me and many other charismatics alike, what gets us moving and even wanting to move is when we hear about and see miracles happen right before our eyes. The lame can walk, the blind can see, the deaf can hear, the sick are healed, etc. We base our faith and our belief on what we witness, if it is parallel to the message, and this sort of become our testimonies of sorts. The trouble comes when we start to do not see these things happening, esp when our lives start to get busy and we do not have the extra time to drive down to churhc for the healing crusades going on. Then, we start to forget abt God just like the Israelites forgotten abt God right after crossing the Red Sea. Then, our faith dwindle and our belief seem to be of non-existence.

somewhere else in the Holy book, i think, after this verse, goes sth like, and the message is heard through the word of Christ. The traditional churches on the other hand, base their christian experience on the Word. The reading and interpretation of the Word. Its The Word, The Word, The Word, and more of The Word. And of course, there will be the fellowship.

Evaluating deeper though, dont we more often hear of charismatic believers backslide rather than those from the traditinonal churches? With all due respect, i hold charismatic churches like CHC and FCBC with high regards, and i even endorse their teachings, but being at grassroot level really show me the two sides to the coin. To start with, many of my backsliden friends or people i know, they are from these 2 churches. The church i am attending also do have a problem with such. really heart breaking. Well, thats most likely cos they(young christians) mistaken the Spiritual hype as the whole of the christian experience. When the hype dies off, they, being new and unacustom are much less kept accountable by the church. The number of backsliding charismatic christians are much magnified in a mega church i guess; makes situations much easier to observe, though i am sure this is the same scenario in almost every charismatic-like churches. Also, since we base our whole experience in the spirital realm, which when infered, means, our experience only happens in church when the pastor lay hands on us, we tend to lack the daily dose of the Word we need, and feel ok with it. i for one, is more often than not, guilty, like Ty put it. It is therefore not hard to find one charismatic believer who do not even know the 10 commandments, much less abide to it, do not do QT regularly(regularly does not means once every year, but more of at least a few times a week, although its supposed to be a daily thing), who do not behave themselves outwardly by indulging in the pleasures of the flesh like gambling, swearing, and other vices. To conclude the charismatic side of the story, we simply do not have enough of The Word as we should have.

On the other hand, the traditional churches teachings do hold some weight, and in being so, manage to keep a large part of their followers. Their concentration on the Word makes their christian lifestyle defined wholly by the Word, and this is a super plus point for them. Backslidin is not often heard from these denominations, and their behaviour in public is more often than not, much more comfortable to live with. Since they base their belief on the written Word, it is a more physical foundation. The Word(bible) will never run away. And of course, when u study the Word, it does speaks fourth sufferin of the saints, therefore, when met with trials and tribulations, a likely scenario is that a bible-nerdy christian will fair much much better than a charismatic one who does not practice his/her faith.

In conclusion, i think that for the church to split into so many denominations, on first thought, its a depressing thing. We are one in the body of Christ yet under so many different school of theology. However, on second thoughts, arent these different schools of theologies defining the different effective ways of governance within the church, i.e. via eldership board, pastorial board blah blah. As such, we have much to learn from one another's way of running our faith. What have we based our beliefs on? Through what we read or what we see? i'll take both. What are our testimonies? Is it what we see, or what we are? Remember the verse, ".. so that others will see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven."? i'll think that, we, as the living light, our testimonies should also not be more of the miracles we see,than the untold yet significant change in the way we lead our lives to Jesus-likeness. This is what we should use to witness; our changed lives.

10 hours straight of videos had driven me bonkers.

aaargh! painful eyes.

天龙八部. Well, that summarised what i have been doing. :D
40 episodes. each episode 45 mins.

it's my bro's fault again. introduce such a show to me. haha.

-what a scam. The good girls in the shows are all beautiful, and the guys either suarve or handsome. But i guess, its better like that. haa.-