yo man wolv! The Chronicles of Nania realli rocks man! there is so much parallel to be drawn and even the convo are quoted from the bible! i think i wanna watch a second time. than i can tell u more stuff... but jsut to tell u how interesting it is... its so thought provoking that my female fren unknowingly followed me and joel into the guys toilet after the show.. ahha! but cos oso she doodling with her fone la.. heh.. dazed by sucha good show! heh..

went shopping with my bro. phycoed him to buy like 2 shirts and 2 shorts and 1 pair of shoes.. while i onli bought one button shirt and one pencil case.but the shop is realli discount sia.. haah

very tired.

zao lo

a way to gauge if you ministry is consuming u:

u start to compromise on your quiet time.

sth to reflect upon

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a good conversation is one where u challenge people's mindset
a great conversation is one where your own mindset is challenged
an awesome conversation is one where both your mindsets are challenged
a rotten conversation is one where both minsets are not challenged.
(or in another werds.. its a brainless conversation)

i had an interesting conversation with taiyong yesterday night (:

thank God! i have a bro whos good at many stuff that i completely dunno!

decided to upgrade my com to one which is capable of storing mass stuff and also do film.. so i went to buy the firewire card and dvd writer and 160gb hardisk. and amazingly, the brother whom i had called stoopid long time ago, now turns out to be far more intelligent and experienced than me.. he is finally showing the potential in him! yeaha! and yeah.. now my com's up and good! with its initial 40gb and my protable hardisk of 80gb.. its like a total of abt 250gb at least.. haha! so happy.

went to judo chalet.. and met alot of frens there.. my batch there is hh cq ws willy xx and jy.. the rest i all dunno. than my snrs and my juniors. realli realli missed them. felt like giving them a hug when i see them.. butmus control myself heh.. and we chatted.. ok onli me cq willy and ws chatted at the hawker centre.. abt gals.. and stuff.. they seem to haf a misconception that i had become a lady killer in sajc.. true i noe more gals now.. but its jc wad!.. haha..they just jealous i thnk haha! but besides that.. got reali updated with one another and realised that the real flirt now is cq! haha..

i starting to realise why God put me in sajc. even though reunion was sweet.. i cant help but notice the rampant use of the F word, used when happy sad frustrated and stuff..so in the end dunno why they use the word.. its like a representation of ALL the punctuations..used by depp and all my juniors. every sentence is littered with this werd. and even i almost fell pray to using this word to scold those using this word... ironical sia.. haha.. thats y God putted me in sajc.. so that i wont be contaminated with all these vulgariteis... and now i realli finding myself in Christ. i am realli and truly the happiest person on earth realising God has me in His plans! heh rather sad though hin not there.

zao lo

went for another jog today.. and when i just started joggin i was like thinking in my mind "awe man the journey is so long!".. thoughts of slowing down my jog start to enter my mind.. i even tot of resting and totalli just sit down and stone.. just i cont running.. the beautiful scenery ard me is realli motivating me to run.. to see more of the new day... when there is a pretty gal(or so i assume) walking in front or joggin i will try to jog faster to either catch up or show off... also i was joggin with my bro.. so when he lag behind can tell him to catch up.. subconciously, u will make your jog slower.. and sometimes i felt like jsut walking and did just that.. and the next tot that enter my mind .. "y not just sit down"...

after much tots i realli think that the spiritual journey is realli like a jog.. in many ways they are similiar... first.. when we start being christians.. we will look ahead and say.."so long before i die" or "so long before Jesus is gonne come".. than we will think abt just giving up our christian walk for a moment and enjoy the pleasures of the world like gambling and indulge in all sorts of ungodly behaviours... than when we think Christ is gonna come soon than we repent and continue our jog...

for those that continue joggin in Christ.. we enjoy the scenery around us.. for some it may be this and some that.. but for me.. i think its gonna be the beautiful testimonies of other people and stories of great miracles and great sermons that keep me going at times... they can be motivating... but they can never be part of our jog...

the girls that urge me to keep jogging faster... in spiritual sense.. they could be like a spiritual level marked with gifts and mebbe trophies... like say.. gift of prophecy and tongues and interpretation of tongues and gift of healing? yeah.. they can motivate us too.. and they can be part of our jog.. but we must use them for the rite reason... if its for a mark so catch up with.. its good.. if its for lust(in the jog its lust.. thats in worldy sense.. but in spiritual sense.. its puttin getting those things above seeking God.. which is lust of the spirit.. idolatry) than its bad..

its also good to have a brother in Christ encouraging u when u run.. esp when u are laggin.. ha or she can pull u or encourage u along... just like Taiyong say abt when the devil wants to pull us away.. christian brothers should hold our hands and not move and jsut sit down.. the devil vannot do anything to us and he will feel very angry and sulky cos he cannot do anything...

sumtimes... when running after God too long as in serving in a ministry.. we should realli take a break and start concentrating on God once again.. thats y in a God sometimes u shouldjsut slow down and walk and enjoy the breeze coming into your face... jsut walking will help u replenish energy and gives u more energy for the later part of the jog.. but we should also note that we dun completely stop.. if we stop.. we will be stagnant....

for those that actualli stopped and or slowed down in a jog consiously.. some know in their mind that they have to cont. running but they just get themselves into an internal sruggle as to whether to run or to cont slacking..(slacking as in overt rest).. think this is the backslider mind set.. they know that they hafta run.. but they just cant seem to convince themselves to do so.... they very much want to cont running but cos of the struggle inside them.. they cant... for those that convinced themselves to run again.. they find satisfaction of convincing themselves to do so and thus continue their real reason for a jog..

sometimes when we jog on grounds that we dun noe.. and are uncomfortable with.. say.. the grass.. we cant help it but step on dog shit..this i see as problems in life.. if u haf a problem and u jsut stop there instead of continuing the run, the problem will alwaes be there.. the dogshit will alwaes be at the soles of your shoe.. but if u will keep running in Christ.. sooner or later, the grass that u step on will slowly but surely clean the sole of your shoe... that means your problems will soon be solved..

lastly, we should al run with the end in mind. if we stop, we will never end!

zao lo!

haha! someone said i was like quite angry by the way i sounded on the blog. nah.. actualli i more of feeling down..

think i will be starting a cell group in class next year.. and slowly grow.. or fast.. it all depends on God.. this the one one magnificent obssession that i am drownin myself in...

went for a morning jog with my bro than i tortured him by giving him simple pt! can u believe it? he cant do pull ups! how is he gonna protect the person that likes sand next time? aweeee.... haha! after that we went to find our uncle werking in the community centre... amazing.. feels so shiok to haf a relative werking so near.. uncle told us to go and bathe b4 bringin us to the nearby coffee shop to eat lunch.. by the way.. the person at the cc said i look like dis guy called Charlie... and he happens to be my DAD.. i was qutie shocked cos i used to dun like being associated with my dad... now i am ok.. but i realise.. i cannot change the way i look.. but i can change the way i look things.. to be diff from my dad.. who is currently now very worldy.. well he used to be a very on fire christian.. doing devotion daily those kind. sth must haf hit him bad.. praying for him.. intercession.

going out with my bro again later.. pretty amazing wad God can do and how God can transform a relationship.. a year ago me and my bro werent even talking.. cos of a small misunderstanding.. and even before that when we talked.. either one of us will be teasing the other.. and i do find my bro irritating last time... now that God have mended our relationship.. i just went from good to better.. and i am now talking to him like to another of my frens... even going for jog together.. and going for dinner with my mom too.. and my bro's grown up to be taller than me with so much knowledge on computer hardware and being an excellent archer... as in.. its his cca.. but yeah.. hes grown.. hope he can grow spiritualli too.. been forcing him to do quiet time and stuff.. hope his spiritual eyes are opened..

oh yeah.. one thing i realised abt my church the sec 4 this year that means next year either jc1 or year 5s.. although they have been very exclusive.. but they have been encouraging each other very positively in God.. as compared to this year sec 2s.. with onli one person growing significantly... i think this year sec 4 batch it.. realli give them respect.. although now they are sufferin from breaking up due to people in their group being attached.. but those that are not attached.. i can see that they have a burning desire to serve God.. always encouraging each other to do quiet time and grow deeper in love with God.. and to point out.. i realli respect kaiyang and daniel although they are younger than me.. God realli used them great.. and others too.. but i wanna mention one gal.. mebbe i shouldnt say her name.. but i dint realised that she was that spiritualli in tuned with God... i was realli realli realli taken aback :

that day in camp. there was this altar call that says.. whoever wanna lay down their worldly standards come forward and recieve this blessing.. and take up their spirutal measurements and stuff liddat.. so when she laid hands... i was in the first place surprised liao cos if a person is younger than u in my church.. they dun usualli lay hands and pray for u especially since shes a gal and younger.. but nevertheless i listened to her prayer.. and her prayer had NOTHING to do with the altar call.. but everything was like right on target the things in my heart! wow! and she even quoted myself speakin God using the exact 2 werds that i used to ask God! awe man! thanks God He still speaks to to although its via a 3rd party thing..

zao lo

been realli an up and down this holidays.. few days ago when i jsut put down that burden.. i felt so relunctant.. and now that i haf put it down.. i feel so light.. its like i am ready for God to come and USE ME BY EMPOWERING ME! but i realised... God did not even minister to me Himself. rather.. he used other people. one thing i come to notice abt myself.. is that i haf been very selfish and onli expecting to be USED instead of seeking wads of the more importance which is to get to a closer relationship with God.. seeking to be used is good.. but it should never take priority over having a right relationship with our Creator. ok i think i got not much time liao. i trying to restrict myself to like half an hour everyday online. shall go and read my manga b4 i go off liaoz.. ahha.. sorry wolv... will be a busy year ahead. might not update much but i will not forget such a good fren like u! hah1

zao lo

hmm.. my first post of the month! been to SU camp and back.. than went to this children's camp which was realli great as well.. my church one.. i think i shall elaborate much later.. as in a few days later...

its been so long since i started askin for God's spirit to come upon me... as in empower me.. very long.. but i dun feel Him.. i am just not sensitive to His presence... of course.. there is this thing that i am still unwilling to give to Him and thats my pride... and its an obstacle.. but i was abt to put it down when the devil took away my chance.. cant help it i guess... cos i was procrastinating..

Oh Father God,
i am realli a sinful person.
many a time i have seen u move in my life.
u stretched out your hand and told me "let me carry your load"
but everytime i just politely declined.
i am sure u noe how much i wanted U to just take it away from me
but u are a God who does not use force
so here am i
my back bending more and more each day.
it had been 4 years since i started carrying this load.
and everyday the dust gathering on my burden makes it heavier.
oh Lord i just ask for one more chance before the camp.
realli.
just one big chance.
cos i wanna go into the camp with an open heart.
one that had given up all it contained U
one that is ready for U to break and make again.
therefore here i am.
very convicted of my sins.
cos i noe that its the reason i cant feel u although your presence was indeed strong.
Oh Father,
let me not call u Father God for nth
show those out there who think "there is no God" that
there is indeed a God
and You are the God.
In Jesus Name i pray

Amen.