hmms there sth interesting i wanna tell u wolv.

i cut my lips. with my razor. wad a freaked incident. heh. that faithful day not long ago abt 4 days ago. morning so i had to rush. looked into the mirror to examine my beautiful face to check for pimples and nose hair that is sticking up... ok thats not my normal routine but so happened that i had a little time to spare that morning when i noticed.. ah! haven shave for a long time. my lip hair is growing loooooooong. happily took my shaver.. put on shaving cream and started shaving. aiyah than realised i actualli rushing for time.. so i rushed and in the midst of it.. shaved of a considerable part of my lips.. heh.. ok la its abt 0.023145892 cm^3 of my lips but still its significant enough to cause much much pain. gah!

oh yeah just to elaborate abit on yesterday's session at COR.. was realli enriching plus got 2 dance items which one was very funky with funky music and dance moves by the dancers both male and females.. full of energy. and oso the graceful ones. gah. dance. realli admire those that can dance. i shall learn dance next time. but i wanna learn ballroom dancing. its so cool and such a good thing to do with one's spouse. ok anyway.. back to topic. guess God had been speaking much to me through circumstances. the word "faith" or "trust" keep coming back to me a few times. also today on the SBS bus a phrase came into my mind. i was pretty sure it was not me thinking. i was meditating on a verse.. "...faith hope and love. But the greatest of all these is Love." and since God had been speaking much to me abt faith.. i was thinkgin abt when 2 points comfirms a pathe of a line which points to having faith in God but than this phrase..." your love(in God) has to be more than your faith(in God).." which might most possibly mean that i hafta place all my faith in Him and have even more that that amount of love in Him? yeah mebbe bah. but i will surely go jc2.

one thing interesting today. had a great talk with christopher tonite. abt the bible.. church history and stuff and oso with taiyong. its been a good time fellowshipping. good thing taiyong was there. he was one of the reason i stayed back if not i would not have be engaged in such an interestin talk with christopher. he talked abt church history and stuff like how the bible came abt. well. i was realli "enlightened" or so to speak. he sent me home after that. and on the way taiyong was BEING A NIUSANCE! haha. can u see this ty! heh.. dun stay in hougang la if not no one fetch u.. hah. ok but anyway. christopher said sth interesting after he left ty in eunos.. not including the part where he started scolding cars or talking to cars to relieve boredom while driving... he told me of his weekly bible study at some college at $120 per semester. got me realli interested since its onli once a week. gah. and its like 7~10pm. ok just a tot but i am noting it down.

zao lo.

God's been blessin me. i noe

been to te seminar today at COR. its good no doupt. guess God was tryin to get to me abt trusting Him.. having faith in Him that i will pass my promos not with flying colours though but yet again i am reminded that His grace is sufficient for me. been praying for 50 points raw for promos without gp so that i can at least score 30 points for overall.

i just found a new way to describe God. His greatness. was worshipping and i sorta dunno y just pictured this in my mind. the answer to how big God is, is: His length or width is determined by the length by which 2 straight lines, after cuttin each other pependicularly.. meet again. which is impossible. so its impossible to measure the greatness of God. Now i can onli find refuge in a few verse particularly this which says that God has plans to prosper us and not to harm us.

another tot which came to me. in 1st Cor 13 or 14 it says that out of these 3.. faith hope and love... love is the greatest. i finallly understood this verse after just reading it so many times b4 i put it into sound arguement in my mind. many a times i have faith in God and i have hope in God.. meaning that i knoe He holds my future in His hands that in Him i can face tml than that tml will be a much greater day. the prob is. i KNOW. but the greatest is love!!! faith and hope is than useless withhtout love. no wonder that although my faith in God is more or less always there cos i noe He will pull me through, but i dun use to love Him or even wanna love Him.

heh ok. here i am to tell u how God had been my provider. today joel asked me to go to gillman to eat dinner with the rest. i said i no money and he said that God will provide. still i dint wanna go. ended up going cos mark insisted on treating me. praise the Lord. i was actualli a little hungry sia.. haha.

kakashi has a special sharingan now! however i suspect its not mengekyu cos it dont looks like itachi's.

zao lo

hey wolv. much had happened this week. the prob is. i totalli forgotten wad had happened. haha.

eh i realised. i cannot study with fun peepz. no wonder the world has quite a number of seemingly boring people. they are for studying with. esp as COR where i often see joel there. mebbe tim. thats y when b4 they came i could study and vice versa for them too.. haha. ok nex time i study there i will confine myself to a certain area. and try to keep super quiet. heh.

attempts to study haf failed miserably so far. u noe u wolv? i think its cos we go to sku. i could haf finished with most of my revision had i not sposed to go to sku. dun see y we still hafta go to sku. haiz.

friday.. hmm its a meaningful day i guess.. after sku went with alvin to bugis to shop.. for his gf's present.. wah biang eh he realli super spend a bomb on her la.. but i guess shes worth his money and time. after all the sfc ex-cher once equate love to time. and since he is realli spending so much time on her present.. this relationship cant be therefore, oneway. but than again i wont haf gone this far for a gal.. not yet at least.. heh. like buying 6 birthday presents and making ice-cream blah blah.. taking the whole afternoon just to find a heart shape box.. py said that alvin had sorta became better after hanging out with me.. but than i think its the otehr way round too. he can be my "how-to-be-a-good-bf" tutor liaoz. haha and yea its very rewarding trip.. this bugis outing.. noe where to buy heart shape box lo! haah.. tag me to find out whre! haha. hmm after spending 2 hrs searching for this box, we found it and went to eat carrot cake @ bugis. its realli nice this time the old uncle cook. vin see liao say he super pro. spent like 3 bucks sth each on dinner and talked more. wah very full sia first time feel like my 3 dollars so worth it.. shall jio vin and a few others on budget meals like this next time. hie hie

sat wanted to study but than realised at ard 9.30 that i sposed to reach sku at 9. so boh bian prepared for sku.. onli to realised 1)zip spoil 2)shirt not ironed. haiz. in the end reached sku ard 11.30 and they finished painting the banner. awwee.. but i brought potato chips so at least i go there got sum use.. and the 5-1 gang gave me breakfast to eat. so it was pretty ok too.. jsut that sat i was realli very stone. even joel commented that i dun look my usual self. mebbe its the prelude to my sickness now. went por por house after that b4 going to fookchow association to collect some prize. haha reached there with daniel and made some new frens. stull dunno their names though. i think they were luffin at my zip when we left but its boh bian cosits spoilt. but fret not! i got fbt inside. haha.

sunday. went to church for first srvice. itwas not bad. at least the praise and worship. talking abt the salt of the world. that how we christians are sposed to be salt of the world. drawing alot of analogies from japan like how salt is used to purify.. b4 the stage actors go on the stage they hafta spray a handful of salt to ward of demons.. how salt is used to preserve.. like how they preserve the dead bodies in mummies.. and how salt is used to kill germs.. this one i add myself de. haa.. but realli. i realli think we should be the salt of the world.. to correct those who are in the wrong instead of lettin the wound rot even more.

been realli hard recently.. my spiritual walk. i noticed that i just cant wait for prayer time to end b4 i enter my sleep. its sorta becum more of a responsibility. mebbe i haven been searchin enuff. and mebbe becos it wasnt quiet enuff. and it turned out to be mroe of a monolouge these days. instead of feeling the peace of God i feel guilt cos i dint pray for certain stuff taht day. f1! f1! the only joy i had is in reading the bible. and morning worship. i want to discipline myself to constantly be in God's presence!argh!

sunday had the old boy's match in sku. amazing and nice to a certain extend. but i had to do all the shit job without gettin a team sajc shirt cos of my size. that itself is bad enuff. than i was late for my famili dinenr. heh but i still made a few new frens from the job of selling teeshirts. the cute little gal amanda.. reminds me of the kids in church. haiz. sorry kids had to pon sunday sku cos of this rugby match...

went por por house again and got good stuff.. met daniel there too and he and hong ian came over to my house. dLed some songs and he went home but me and ian had to do wr. did until so late at night and slept so little that in the morning hongian caught my virus liao. argh! sorry ian.

monday. my ct was unwiling to give me a green slip. went to my ct and said i was sick and to that i was given a sacarstic reply. its like i went to get a green slip and i said." ****** i very sick and i need a green slip to go home and rest." than my ct replied, with a sickly voice, of which obviously is gek out one." i oso very sick leh how".. wah biang that realli got my blood boiling. if u realli put a thermometer in my mouth the thing itself would haf spoilt. instead of showing care and concern for my health its more like showing me a black face. dunno my feeling was that my results was more impt than my health. to think when i told my mom this she sided with my cher but of course she was symphatatic to my case too. hongian too got a lashing from my cher. disappointed.

today is tuesday. same thing happened just that i got the greenslip faster. either way i couldnt cont sku since i onli went sku for my maths assignment. the rest of the lessons.. not that they are not impt. but i realli need the rest. so now off i go to study!

zao lo

Friends in high places

i was in need and i needed a friend
i was alone and i needed a hand
i was going down but someone rescued me
my God cares too much to say
His mercies are new everyday
I get down to pray
and than help is on its way

i walk by faith and not by sight
when things go wrong it will be alright
cause someone greater is watching over me
my God cares too much to say
His mercies are new everyday
i get down to pray and than help is on its way

now in faith i believe
that i've got everything i need
i walk by faith and not by what i see
i've got frens in high places
i've got someone i can call
and i've got someone watching over me



Deeper in love with You

there is a longing only You can fill
a raging tempest onli You can still
my soul is thirsty Lord to know You as i'm known
drink from the river that flows before your throne

take me deeper, deeper in love with You
Jesus hold me close in Your embrace
take me deeper, deeper than i've ever been before
i just wanna love You more and more
how i long to be dedper in love

sunrise to sunrise, i will seek your face
drawn by the spirit to the promise of your grace
my heart has found in You a hope that will abide
here in your presence forever satisfied




Consuming fire

There must be more than this
O breathe of God come breathe within
There must be more than this
Spirit of God we wait for You
fill us anew we pray
fill us anew we pray

consuming fire fan into flames
a passion for Your name
Spirit of God fall in this place
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way with us

come like a rushing wind
clothe us with power from on high
new set the captives free
leave us abandoned to Your praise
Lord let your glory fall
Lord let your glory fall

stir it up in our hearts Lord
stir it up in our hearts Lord
stir it up in our hearts a passion for your name.




ok nicola here u go.


wah biang i reach home chiong dinner and now i chiong typing. not bad the feeling of typing is so shiok. esp after i decided to get away from my com these few days. heh.

these few days i've been studying. ok at least i tried. and i am feeling happier and more positive abt studying. its starting to take over me now that i decided being a mugger is not that bad after all. sorry muggers out there which i had made fun of. haiz. should haf mugged earlier. now i am realli having a hard time. onli few verses i am clinging onto is the on which has.. all things work for the good of those who serve Him.. and oso the.. do not worry abt tml for tml has enough worries of its own... and oso the fact that God os by my side.. well at least the knowledge of it comforts too.

been realli mad at a teacher. said i dint come to sku on monday. and how was it not possible that i came sku? i come for morning worhsip and reach sku at 6.50am abt there everyday. never been late all my life excpt once in sec 4. and now i noe the feeling of being accused. wah biang. to think that my attendance was not marked even though that teacher saw me and i even joke with the cher abt having skin prob. cannot say i joke abt that on tuesday cos the tann was already there on monday and tuesday the cher never come down for assembly. and today is wed. haiz. but if God has a purpose for me to go to DC. i dun mind cos a few of my classmates esp those close to me one all comfirm tio dc.. heh. so actualli when u do with frens. dc can be quite interesting. i hope heh..

been going to COR.. its realli a homely place. besides.. its quiet and full of clever peepz who do double maths so i can go there do maths.. joel is good in econs so can do econs there.. and chem and physics... i think bong can help physics.. plus plus plus... there is not much smell of food.. hie hie.. and the sofa.. yeah~..

oh i got into my chua's bad books cos i did sth which is percieved as wrong in his sight.. mebbe i was wrong. he said class rep should go and haf ther principal dialouge session.. but i saw no point in it cos i wanna do werk.. going there will waste 3 hrs.. furthermore brian was there and could represent our class.. and plus our class has nth much to complain anyway since we are so peace loving. haiz. how i wish being classrep is onli a monthly thing. liddat everyone can be class reps and have equal burdens and experience.

than again on the other hand i am getting into mdm lee and mdm kwan the good books.. i think at least cos i am conc on their subs at least. i wanna be prmoted! hai but if boh pian than i gonna drop econs.. i dun realli care abt money since God provides and secondly if i can successfully get 3 As includingscience i will get a much better job with a much higher pay. those that study econs cos they wanna pursue it as a job option usualli suffer the same fate as those that take further maths... that is.. either they become super well known mathematician or economist.. or they just becum teachers.. which is not bad too considering that the starting pay is sth ard 2.3k. but a scientist can surely earn much more than that!:D

Spoiler ALERT! bleah-- ben sim said there's a genkai after the bankai stage. no wonder captain aizhen like so power.. defeated ichigo's bankai without a frown.. sumore he still smiling lorhz..

tuesday had a bad start.. missed train.. lost tie. but God showed His grace and mercy and i found back my tie!! thx God! xinyan took it home. hie hie.

monday wasnt that well either but it was a great day considering tha fact that God made it for me. studied at COR for awhile and wanted to go bible study but went out was drizzling. so i tot " ok walk side gate ".. it was LOCKED! so i had to run and run and run like a gazelle all the way to the busstop by the time i became something like spongebob just that i dun haf squarepants. and the news these days.. realli starting to reflect wads like in the last days.. thunder.. hurricane.. big winds.. and now our country got this dengue thingie oso.. haiz.. bible study was good too.. just love it.. time of fellowship too.

zao lo.

hey wolv. i just realised my life these days are quite boring. no more hanging ard with my classmates much except wed at harbour for awhile. friday we had worship seminar which was not bad but cos of the rain i was trapped in COR for quite some time until eventualli i decided to sleep for awhile even though i had my contacts on. haiz.. bad practice.

now on the good side of life this weekend. yesterday was one of those real saturdays that i dint have any appointments so i can sleep until like 9 although i had to wake peepz up at 6.. hie hie (*grin* at the next chairman of the $3.50 a day club). but thereafter i did some math. its quite frustrating doing integration realli. one whole tutorial i tot i wont take long. in the end took me the whole of teacher's day plus the whole of saturday and now sunday abit and i still haben finish. not bad though onli left the integration by substituition part even though i still dunno if my answers for integration by parts is correct. haha. ok anyway. i think the services at creative technologies is realli bad. i wanted their 60GB hardisk like since june. when i called, the person told me that they onli haf it during sale. so i asked them when is the next sale. he told me that its in september. so now is september and i call again to ask abt it, they told me that they dun haf 60GB already.. not even the 40GB.. onli left one last piece of the 20GB.. so why the heck did i wait so long to be disappointed? but thanks and praise be to God He is ever so faithful. Mr fong is gonna make a hardisk 80GB with lan capabilities one for me. mebbe is a good thing that the restocking at creative tec is so lag anyway. heh.

today went to meet with mr fong and ms leong. my ex tuition teachers. guai kia me bought curry puffs for them onli to realise that miss leong is having a sore throat and mr fong just ate. haiz. but than they treated me to some high class coffee at mph at PP with a moonshaped french bread i am sure u noe wad i am toking abt. furthermore mr fong oso let me chiong episode 42~47 of bleach on his computer. wad a feast of the stomache and the eye! haha

mom said sth realli bad abt me. she said i got fatter and not as handsome! argh! haha. to add salt to wounds. she said that now my bro very handsome. argh! ok i admit it. our family got the advance bloodline of the "looks" jitsu. my cousins oso very shuai one. haha. but than i tot i was the one with the bloodline limit! gah! ok just joking. but i am realli getting fatter. with all these trying-to-study i am realli needing something physical.

ok now that i haf updated u abt my phsical life.. let me tell u my thoughts life and oso spiritual life.

yesterday had a great service. this guy from dunno wad church came down to speak to us abt the LAST generation, the LOST generation, and the LORD'S generation. feeling lost. thats wad i felt in france when i was abt 6 when i was lost at disneyland. definately not a good feeling. taiyong had a revelation. u should read his blog. www.tyong.blogspot.com mebbe i should like link him along with samson and my classamtes. but nah. quite lazy. prayed abit and shared with ty and samson after that. realli loved it. thanks for bros liddat.

i just tot abt it. men are selfish. even pastors. just that pastors are too self-thinking till they are selfless. it may sound like an irony but hear me out. God Loves Jesus. Jesus loves us. for wad reason? just cos we are His creation He is responsible to love us? even sometimes i draw pictures and dun like them. they just end up in the bin. no big deal for me but to God, everyone is a big deal. Not cos of who we are but cos of who is He. He is love. on the contrary look at our selfish selves. Why do we love God? surely not cos He is the God of judgement or cos He is a just God who dosent let crimes go unpunished. NO! we love God cos of He who send His Son so that we may haf life. so for this life we thank and love God. if we do not have this gift of eternal life, will we still fear God? for me, i wont even care abt my life already. u will see me commiting every single sin on earth and having a hell of a time (literalli cos i will end up in hell anyway) cos no matter how much charity i do, i can never redeem myself. but for this gift of eternal life for my own sake, i love God and seek to follow Him. its mebbe onli this selfish desire that God will allow, which is to selfishly want this gift of eternal life, at the same time helping people along in seeking this treasure as well. hence through this selfish desire of wanting eternal live for ourselves, we becum selfless too. Good thing God's love has not measure or limit. if not i dont think i will be sharing Christ like i should.

i haf another tot to share. lately, as in the past few weeks.. temptations have been coming back. talked to samson abt it tog with ty and samson said sth that struck a chord within me. that is, whenever these thoughts come back, its like an alarm to tell us that we are spiritualli tired and not getting strength to live by from Him who provides strength. Its also an alarm to tell us that we haf not been living our lives right like in the aspects of doing quiet time. picture an office. many a time we picture ourselves in the driving seat of this company by the name of "our lives". when we have holidays and extra time, we will than be able to sit down and talk to our employees one of whom is called "tv", "computer".. and maybe once in a while talk to the quiet employee sitting at the far dark corner of the office called "God". when days are even better and u dun feelike seeing that quiet employee of yours cos He might be meddling too much, u start to give Him off days. than cos of His inefficency in your company, you will soon start to give Him "discounts" on His wages. your trust for Him to do a good job starts to dwindle. than more sooner than you expect, u will wanna sack Him out of "our lifes". THIS SHOULD NOT BE IT BROTHERS AND SISTERS IN CHRIST! the boss is actualli God! and we are just being werkers having a chance at living and werking at "our lives" He is the ever frenly boss, never too bz to hear u out and even giving u a helping hand. of course He will werk our asses off but wadever werk He gives us it is within our capacity and in the end of the day we will realise ourselves gaining reputation in "our lives" as well as respect and love from fellow colleagues having this chance of living "our lives". U will find yourselves never wanting to leave a company like that.

i am writing this not mainly cos i wanna remind u brothers and sisters out there although this might be my secondary purpose. once in a while i will look back at my own entries and hopefully i chance upon this one day and share this thought with myself. have a blessed time reading my thoughs.

ok here is a song i wrote recently. no tune yet although i haf a tune in mind. its constantly being upgraded everytime i sing it though. haha



Title: Your Hands

Temptations' all ard me Lord

Troubles and Fears

They seemed so Near

I look ard i see no help

Until i start Looking up!


Your hands

they're stretching out to me

Lift me

above the stormy seas

So now

I'm lost in your embrace

Never looking back till I've run my race!





ps: ty lets claim this gift of righteousness together. :D

zao lo!

oh no! promos just seems ard the corner. poor me. its all that stuupud caleb's fault. baka. why had he decided to play away his first semester?!?!?!?! now i hafta try to catch up with the others just cos of his negligence. awe!!!! work work work. kanasai i realli think that now i am not as clever as i thought i was. but than again, this is called understanding one self better. however i am quite vexed over the fact that i wrote a 1151 werd gp essay and can still manage to fail.. by like 21/50. must have been like wad mr Lim said abt me.. 30% is the solid stuff.. the rest all crap. hhaa! so i haf lived up to my reputation after all. wanna take a look at my gp essay wolv? i took like abt 5 hrs to type it out la. sianz.

question :The arts help in the better understanding of ourselves and our society? discuss.

Looking around us, we can see many different visual forms of art, which includes painting, films, drawings, designs. Also there is the literal form of art such as the language rich Shakespearean text. Of course, religion and history can be considered as a form of art. However, all these art forms are derived from the basis that they are all human representation of human emotions or feelings or that it helps us understand human decisions and what might result from it. Parallels can be drawn to present circumstances and allow us to come up with a better solution. The different mediums in which the art works are being expressed is just the tool of which a creator records down his or her thoughts and emotions.

Not may of us can predict our futures and even those who boast of being able to do so ends up wrong most of the time. However, what that is unchangeable is what that is already happened. Through learning our past, we are therefore able to understand human reaction to certain scenarios. After the first world war, the Germans were forced to pay huge reparations which led to displeasure due to the dent to the German pride. This resulted in the second world war led by Hitler, who had seemingly fought for the German cause. Had the Allied forces not learn their lessons after the first world war and demand a higher reparation fee, there would most likely be a third world war.

A dot drawn on paper will allow infinite number of lines to pass through, but if there is another dot on the paper, only one straight line can result from drawing through those two lines. Likewise, if we draw out a solution to our problems based on our past and our present, we will be able to picture a more realistic future. Thus by learning history we can better understand our society’s reaction to a certain issue better.

Another way to comprehend our society better is by studying literal art. As what an individual is defines the work of his hands, the same could be said of the writer and the text he writes. A good writer is able to pen down not only his or her own thoughts but also the intangible human emotions. Through literature, one would be introduced to the world of awareness to the different shades of human emotions. ‘Edward Hooper’ in the book ‘King of the Castle’, might just seem like a child, but Susan Hill was able to depict him in such a way which challenges readers to think further, that if all children are really as innocent and as angelic as they seemed. Therefore, appreciating literature would lead a person to question his or her own sensitivity as compared to others and aid in better understanding or ourselves. This might just be the reason why a pen is stronger then a sword.

Religion can also be viewed as a form of art. Take Christianity for example. The book ‘Proverbs’ in the Bible, written by King Solomon, Agur and Lemuel, speaks of great insights and as its name suggests, contains a sea of proverbs. This book is able to serve as a book teaching great governing values as well as a book which offers great knowledge as it is predominantly written by one of the most acclaimed Kings in written history. The Bible itself can also be seen as a great history text. Everyone will surely have a set of faith. If they do not believe in God, they will place their faith on themselves, hence religion can also shape one’s character. Through reading religious text such as the Bible, Koran and the Sutras and meditating on the words written in it, thinking it through and understanding it, followers of respective faiths are then able to mould their lives into the God they model after. Through faith, many art works have been inspired such as the statue ‘David’ done by Michelangelo and many others that have been done during the renaissance period from the 1400s onwards.

As religion can shape one’s mind, by studying religion, it is possible to understand why a certain group of people will react a certain way to a given circumstance and through this avenue, give us a better idea of ourselves, that is if we commit ourselves to a specific religion, and also to the society around us.

We can also, through the study of the art of economics, understand our society better. Living in such a financial world of delicate balance, a change in the price of a product will affect the price of another compliment or substitute product, as similar to a change in salary will certainly see a change in our lifestyles. Through studying economics, we can have knowledge of how supply and demand is related, thereby making light of human nature. This can be shown in the case of the ‘Hello Kitty’ soft toy which MacDonald’s sold along with a MacDonald’s meal a few years ago in Singapore. The ‘Hello Kitty’ soft toy was not only cute but cheap and also a collector’s item thus resulted in a long queue. Had the soft toy been some common item available anywhere or that had it been priced higher, there would have been lesser people queuing for it. Thus, it is very possible to study human behavior according to the trend of goods prices.

Detractors might argue that art is actually a form of propaganda, that it influences us to think the way we are thinking. This I do agree as shown by the posters and advertisements which drummed up German’s feelings prior to the second world war, but if we are influenced by this propaganda, than it would shape our character too. Therefore it can be justified to say that even if art really does propagates, it also spread a certain idea and people who subscribe to these ideas, they can also be classified and understood together as a group, such as the Klu Klux Klan, who believed in the superiority of the whites and their behavior and appearance can be easily recognized by the white hoods they wore.

In conclusion, I believe that art enables us to come to a better understanding of ourselves and our society. Various works of art bring to light certain things that are happening in our society such as the film ‘15’ directed by Royston Tan portrays the life lead by real gangsters. Such things we do not see in our everyday life and many of us might not even have given it much thought. It is through all these forms of art, be it visual enhancing or literal, that we are able to discover our inner most self and through thinking over the topics these art works seems to underline that we better improve ourselves and become a unit of this society.

just wanna tell u that hor wolv, i went up the stage to perform yesterday. was realli worried abt gettin my steps wrong. but God realli helped me. went back to see teachers but they all zhaoed liao. onli said hi to mrs kee. haiz.. all that free jelly's fault~! haiz. if there werent any freee jellies i would haf chionged back to chinese high faster.. haha. oh talking abt the jelly.. it rocks man.. bewi nice. and the logan too.. aiyah too bad there werent much. but it was a good thing got free food haha. if not will be very hungry cos we onli went KAP at like 1. met up with jonathan peyyann isaac shijun william siliang a a few others. realli missed them. haiz. as classmates at least. not that my current class aint good.

its ron bdae too yest. but i overslept and dint met them on time.. onli me rebec lipz ron and joanne turned out. the hamsters and guinea pigs and rabbits were cute though! haha

God had been telling me a chapter of a story the past week. its been coming back to me but i dunno wad to do abt it but pray. dun seem to be gettin an answer. but its abt worship. its abt the woman with the perfume wiping Jesus's feet with her hair and her tears. GoD! send me a revelation! haiz. relli miss bible stdy! can i have it back soon?!? hah.

these few days i haf a fattish for skies. just lvoe taking fotos of the skies. its like one of the best art werk that God ever made besides us living creatures. not onli is it beautiful but it also changes all the time. ever wondered y its so big and heavy yet its still in the sky? made me remember of wad ty wrote in his blog abt having this house extending into the clouds and being with God or sth liddat. when i look at the clouds.. i am realli amazed abt it. why is the sky blue? y issit not grey or black? its a beautiful wonder. just like God. if he can make sth so beautiful and smart like us and the clouds, how much cleverer can He be? Must be awesome.

a thought just came through my mind.. dunno if i had shared it with u. its abt God. Long before there was TIME, there was already God, so God made time and cannot be controlled by time. so to those that have been asking, who made God? what is before and after God? well sorry to disappoint u, that your questions are totalli INVALID! cos God created time, God cannot be confined to a certain timeline! God defines the beginning and the end hence there is no beginning or end without God. also to that, God too has the answer. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end. many have been asking "Where is God? i cant see Him" to that i have a simple explaination. i have been thinking through too. God is spirit. being spirit, He can be anywhere and anytime. God is so great that when we see Him, we cannot withstand His glory and will jus die. but He loved man so much, how can He let us die? yet again, when God once walked on earth, in the form of Jesus, many of our ancester's despised Him. they see God yet do not see God at the same time. men is scared of wad they see or even see faintly.. an example is those ghost sightings. but to wad we cannot see, should we be much more in awe? those ghost sightings.. they might be true but think back, those spirits were unsuccessful in totalli remaining invisible right? they are useless against He who who cannot see unless He choose for us to see Him.

off to do maths!

zao lo