went back to take cert today.. well actualli its more of going back there to see hci.. once more.. and to see my team mates..awww.. i realised how much i love them now that we dun see each other as frequently.. when i met up with them today.. i am just so darn glad man.. so darn glad.. but than alot of "what ifs" floated back into my mind..
what if i realli got into hci.. what would i be doing now?0.. i would have known peepz that will allow me to do better in studies.. such as those that got lesser life and go home straight after sku so than i am sorta forced to go home after sku to doodle with my werk.. of course i will now be
-- trng hard with my j1 buddies.. complaining of every drop of sweat and tear but still loving every moment of it..
-- sharing in one of the little secrets of one of our teammats instead of being the only one of us 5 that dun haf the slightest idea abt wads going on and no one wants to tell me...
-- suaning peepz of me only needing to study for 2 subjects cos the other days of the tests all taken up by prelimaries for the competition..
-- telling my juniors that for next year the grad nite will be free for me cos they will have to pay and i dun care..
-- slacking like anything and only playing DOTA whole day with my buddies
-- taking maths art econs and physics or chem...
-- not wanting to go to sku for the phobia of trng but still lovin it..
-- be an antisocial and onli knowing those of my OG.. CG and ex sku mates or cca mates but at the same time.. strenghtening those very bonds..
-- not having to worry abt PW cos there should be at least a gal in my group and everyone in my group should be as productive as that gal.. just like those gals in the pw group in sa that is so gan giong abt it..
-- worring abt my studies cos i noe that hci can deliver even though i dun wanna study
-- playing my fav sport: chapteh
-- having a "better not get into his bad books" reputation cos i look quite dao.. LOOK i emphasise..
-- and be sleeping now cos camp just ended..
-- talking with my buddies abt the more can make it gals in hci but dun dare to tok to them haha..
-- telling them wad a good time i had in sajc and that they missed the fun of a lifetime.. however at the same time feeling at home in hci
-- not worrying abt my fitness level
-- not worrying abt how to leave sku earlier one of these days to watch judo finals
-- worrying more abt the judo finals instead of anything else
-- missing my current class cos i will not have talked that much to my classmates if i had my buddies..wad a long hols.. yet still quite short
haiz wad an opportunity cost.. BUT i
-- would have missed God's purpose for me in life.. its where He wants me to be at least
-- wouldnt have known so many nice-but-still-not-so-good-fren-but-can-and-will-be-better-frens kinda peepz like those in my og class and ccas.. both of them.. now that i got sfc and rugby.. of which i haven even touch the ball haha..
-- would have totally lost motivation to study..
-- would have missed tellig those in hci esp my buddies that there are alot of chiobus.. altouhg is can see cannot touch those kind.. haha
-- would not be able to help in CAC 2005 and risk not mending the broken relationship with my bro..
-- would not be able to resolve to do quiet time..with God..
so Lord i pray yoo tell me wad i spose to accomplish here in sa.. cos i need a goal in life.. if not i will be heartbroken each time i visit my old sku..
zao lo